Mental note: respond once this lovely week of tests comes to a close.
And I realize I'm exactly where I want to be. Despite the torture, and the lack of a life, I asked for this. This is what I want.
To sum up the MS1 experience so far:
Review book > Textbook
Anatomy = Biochem
Friday > Saturday
Beer > Liquor
All-in-all, pretty decent. There are some bumps in the road, but most days I find myself thinking "Wow, I really DID learn a lot today." It's just expected that not every day is gonna be a cakewalk. Most people in my class seem used to it already.
I heard that 2nd year is harder in that its WAY more information, but that its also alot more interesting becuse you are learning all of these diseases. So at least we have something kinda to look forward to. I must admitt that I'm enjoying embryo for the shear complexity of it and how everything comes together so nicely, but I'm hating histo
I heard that 2nd year is harder in that its WAY more information, but that its also alot more interesting becuse you are learning all of these diseases. So at least we have something kinda to look forward to. I must admitt that I'm enjoying embryo for the shear complexity of it and how everything comes together so nicely, but I'm hating histo
Thank you guys for making me feel better. Like one of the previous posters I am definitely doing exactly what I want to do, and I am SO grateful to be here, but that does not stop me from throwing myself a massive pity party sometimes when it all seems overwhelming (which is most of the time) and I feel sort of hysterical when I think about how behind I am (I am always behind). Plus it is definitely depressing to realize that when you are in med school, everybody is extremely smart, everybody is extremely hard-working, and you are no longer an academic superstar. I am sure most of us attributed a hefty portion of our self esteem to our academic success, so when that takes a bunch of hits it definitely is pretty hard to deal with.
And amen to whoever said biochem was boring. Biochem is SOOOOOOOOOO boring. I thought radiology was boring but biochem seriously makes radiology look like a Broadway musical.
Also does anybody else feel as though the first year is lasting forever? I know 2nd year is more difficult, but lord let it be more interesting to. I definitely don't want to go into research, and I do like people, and I am just trying to remind myself that it will get more interesting after this first year of the grind. Right? Right?
Help!
All right, well I'm going to be ok, I just need to get some things out.
I just took my first anatomy exam on Monday and got the results today. I've been totally jarred by the results. While I definitely passed, I scored in the bottom third of my class. Having studied studiously since (literally) day one, I expected a heck of a lot more out of myself. I kept on top of things, went to lab, practiced questions, and have spent the last two weekends completely at home just to ensure a solid start.
Well, quite unexpectedly, I got a real jolt. Let me back up. I went to a small, private college with a really solid science program known for its great pre-med preparation. I graduated with excellent grades and got into my medical school of choice early fall of my senior year. After a long and wonderful summer of just chilling and doing research, I started medical school here, 3 hours from my home.
I'm no gunner, but I'm no slacker either. I worked for my grades in college and am used to putting time in = getting grades out. I expect to be able to consistently place at least somewhere in the middle of my class (~125 kids). Now, it's too early to make any calls, but this start has my groove completely shattered. We've had a quiz and exam (today) in molecular-cell and I've been rocking that class. Biochem is unknown as of yet, but anatomy! I expected more out of myself.
What do you think I should do? I love medicine and would never think of trying anything else. But I can't believe I'm having trouble hacking this. My deficit on the exam was mostly the practical. I rocked the straight MC part of the written exam until the section where you have answer choices like this:
A. None of these are correct
B. One of these is correct
C. Two of these are correct
...etc all the way up to three and then the choice that "All of these are correct." Those screwed me.
But what eats and eats at me is that I put in time. I can bet you kids in there coming from the same background as I spent the same or less time and rocked the exam. I'm thinking my sub-par performance is not a function of time spent studying as it is efficiency of time spent studying...
It's really hard to kick yourself back into full-speed again once you take a blow like this. I can't afford to stumble lest my other classes start suffering (let alone the inevitably more difficult 2nd anatomy exam). It's a real jab to self-confidence. Maybe I'm just a 30%tile person no matter what I do? I refuse to succumb to such a thing 🙁
...and all I can think is that if I start slipping now, the moderately-competitive specialties I have my eye on will start to become less and less possible to match into.
Stress! But I plan on picking up and moving on and seeing where I end up.
It's really hard to kick yourself back into full-speed again once you take a blow like this. I can't afford to stumble lest my other classes start suffering (let alone the inevitably more difficult 2nd anatomy exam). It's a real jab to self-confidence. Maybe I'm just a 30%tile person no matter what I do? I refuse to succumb to such a thing 🙁
Biochem is over!!!! Forever! I'm sooooo happy! That has always been my most dreaded subject, so it's all up from here!
And no one go tell me about how I'll have to use it later, it's on step I, blah, blah--never again at the intensity it was!
You will start to miss it ((((Biochem)))) you can't escape it's tentacles ... it is everywhere.👎laugh:
I heard you all cover anatomy in six months as well. I guess it's intensity followed by nothingness?