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Hi everyone! I have been looking for something like this to make me feel not-so-alone on this difficult journey, and I am hoping I can help others on theirs. I am about to be 28 years old in the beginning of March and this is my 4th application cycle. In all of my cycles, I have not once received an interview or a waitlist spot. As of right now, I have heard back from 7/8 schools I applied to this cycle, and Iowa is the last school I am waiting to hear from. My experiences are very strong and varied, and I know my essays and rec letters are very strong too. Unfortunately, all of this hasn't even been looked at by almost all schools due to my below average GPAs. I know my academics is my issue and I have done a lot of work over the last few years to forgive myself for the mistakes I made in undergrad. I have failed classes, gotten C's and D's on retakes of those classes. I have withdrawn from multiple classes and from an entire semester. I have so much debt already that it makes me sick, and I only am able to work part time 30 hours a week for $16.50 as a Vet Assistant (in NY), which I don't enjoy a lot of the time. I feel like I am stagnant, and going further into debt every day, but I have given myself permission to not give up on this dream.
I got my Bachelors in 2020, two years after I "should" have graduated, because I was dealing with a lot of personal stuff. We all have trauma and it's not our fault. Sometimes I accidentally compare myself to other people I have gone to high school or college with, or worked with, who are already halfway done with Vet school, or are already practicing as Vets. It hurts, BAD. That's why I try my hardest not to do it, but every once in a while I see a facebook or instagram post that triggers me. I convince myself that these other people don't deserve it or even want it as bad as I do.....which is terrible. And not true. We all deserve this and have all worked hard on it. I'm just being vulnerable here, and hoping this will resonate with some other people and help them feel not so alone. I have saved up money (which is incredibly difficult on a vet assistant's wage) and paid to retake some classes over the last few years between cycles, and I am about to complete a graduate certificate in shelter medicine. I have gotten all A's in this program. In my retakes I gave been getting A's and B's. I have so many credits that my cumulative gpa barely moves-I'm just hoping to get it above a 3.0 to make some schools' cut-offs if needed for future cycles (it's a 2.94 right now). My pre-req gpa is between a 3.2-3.5 depending on the school. My last 45 right now is a 3.2. I know this is not competitive, but I have been hoping and praying that at least one school would look past my mistakes from several years ago and give me a chance based on my resilience and experience. It has not happened yet. If I am rejected from Iowa next week, I plan to sulk a little bit and try to figure out what I want to do next. I don't know if I want to take a step back from this coming cycle and wait until I have significantly increased my pre-req and last 45 GPAs before I apply again, or if I will do as many retakes as I can until September and apply again. I can't bear the thought of skipping a cycle and the potential to start a year earlier, but after doing this for 4 years I am exhausted with all of the essay writing, research, spending money on apps, and not to mention the intense pain of rejection.
Like I said, I am being vulnerable here. I am not looking for advice as I have been working on this for several years and know what I need to improve and have done the file reviews, research, etc. But my real goal here is to make other applicants like me feel not so alone. And I for myself to feel not so alone. As of right now, I am not planning on giving up on this. But it still is painful and exhausting, and I think we can all use a little encouragement to keep our heads up.
I got my Bachelors in 2020, two years after I "should" have graduated, because I was dealing with a lot of personal stuff. We all have trauma and it's not our fault. Sometimes I accidentally compare myself to other people I have gone to high school or college with, or worked with, who are already halfway done with Vet school, or are already practicing as Vets. It hurts, BAD. That's why I try my hardest not to do it, but every once in a while I see a facebook or instagram post that triggers me. I convince myself that these other people don't deserve it or even want it as bad as I do.....which is terrible. And not true. We all deserve this and have all worked hard on it. I'm just being vulnerable here, and hoping this will resonate with some other people and help them feel not so alone. I have saved up money (which is incredibly difficult on a vet assistant's wage) and paid to retake some classes over the last few years between cycles, and I am about to complete a graduate certificate in shelter medicine. I have gotten all A's in this program. In my retakes I gave been getting A's and B's. I have so many credits that my cumulative gpa barely moves-I'm just hoping to get it above a 3.0 to make some schools' cut-offs if needed for future cycles (it's a 2.94 right now). My pre-req gpa is between a 3.2-3.5 depending on the school. My last 45 right now is a 3.2. I know this is not competitive, but I have been hoping and praying that at least one school would look past my mistakes from several years ago and give me a chance based on my resilience and experience. It has not happened yet. If I am rejected from Iowa next week, I plan to sulk a little bit and try to figure out what I want to do next. I don't know if I want to take a step back from this coming cycle and wait until I have significantly increased my pre-req and last 45 GPAs before I apply again, or if I will do as many retakes as I can until September and apply again. I can't bear the thought of skipping a cycle and the potential to start a year earlier, but after doing this for 4 years I am exhausted with all of the essay writing, research, spending money on apps, and not to mention the intense pain of rejection.
Like I said, I am being vulnerable here. I am not looking for advice as I have been working on this for several years and know what I need to improve and have done the file reviews, research, etc. But my real goal here is to make other applicants like me feel not so alone. And I for myself to feel not so alone. As of right now, I am not planning on giving up on this. But it still is painful and exhausting, and I think we can all use a little encouragement to keep our heads up.