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One of my very best friends in the world suffered from very very crippling anxiety, social and otherwise, and was morbidly obese. I was one of her few IRL friends from junior high.
I have had plenty of mental health struggles myself. I still made it to residency, although I question if it was worth it, but that has less to do with my ability to cope (eg because I did and finished) and more to do with the way medicine is.
Anyway, my friend didn't get help for many many years. She did eventually and has a good career, relationships with family and new friends, and lost a lot of weight most importantly by taking great care of herself, walked off the weight (seriously, just walking, too heavy/knee problems to do more vigorous) and eating a healthy diet (not extreme, just healthy).
You can get better and do this. Sounds trite, but really.
There are separate issues here. If you were having no struggles at all and had a perfect app for med school, I would still caution you not to go / think extra twice about it, explore other careers and medicine more fully.
*You don't have to give up on med school over this*
but regardless should seek help, and consider other careers, just cuz.
As far as your app goes, what has happened can be repaired, it does not mean you cannot get in somewhere despite what has happened. However, that does not mean you should continue to struggle and dig this hole of grades / what not deeper.
I don't know what your finances are re: school and getting help.
I would take time from school or take the least and easiest clases you can that you can do well or may even help you (if you must maintain enrollment for financial reasons). Psychology, sociology, physical education classes (great way to get credit and work out, often Pass/No pass, it OK to have pass/no pass in some classes for med school), health studies, nutrition, stuff like that maybe? Just don't continue to damage your GPA. Better to have a gap and come back strong to explain to adcom than to keep on with grades like this.
You can do some easy extracurriculars to fill in time. Physician shadowing doesn't require much of you besides showing up. I've shadowed psychiatrists, you could contact some directly, or if there's a med school nearby look up what psych's are affiliated with the school and contact them. Shadowing psychs isn't in high demand by pre-meds because it's not as sexy as surgery or other fields whatevs, so they are often thrilled a student wants to shadow (if patients allow, you have to sign confidentiality papers and ask patient permission) and you'll just sit and listen. Psychs spend so much time listening they love to yak given half the chance. So you just show up, put a smile on, ask a few questions, and that's it. You can get a good letter, it looks great to adcom to have this experience and appear psychologically saavy to mental health issues, and you can actually learn a lot to help yourself too. You can also shadow some 12 step programs too. Volunteering. There's volunteer stuff that's pretty low on effort. You can even look on craigslist.
Study groups are a good thing. Cheap campus events even by yourself can get you out and lift your spirits (or skip that if going alone just makes you sadder.) Meetup groups online. A lot of lonely people go there to connect. There are anxiety support groups even.
Speaking 12 Step groups, research some. Google Adult Children of Alocoholics/Dysfunctional families and see if that fits, or Overeater Anonymous (don't know if that fits you), Codependents Anonymous, and online is a website SEA (self esteem anonymous) with great info. If there's a 12 Step group that may apply to you, take the plunge and go. You don't have to talk at these meetings, you can just listen, but it can really help, it's an accepting bunch, a lot of people who will understand and reach out to you if you identify with any of these groups and if they're close by. Some of these groups offer tele groups if no group meets near you. Groups are essentially free, they suggest a donation at each group but it's optional and small like $2-4 per meeting.
I had to look up strategies to make friends when I left high school, because college just doesn't put you with people depending where you live (I can't assume you're in a dorm). There's co-ops, getting a roommate situation.
Go early to class and sit next to someone there and say hi and introduce yourself. Ask what they think of ___ assignment or teacher. When there's opportunity, think of something to compliment someone in the grocery store on.
"I like your earrings. Where did you get them?" "I like that comment you made in class." It seems odd, dumb, forced to your socially anxious brain, but people will either not say much or be excited to talk to you. Little interactions, like complimenting strangers, will make you feel better, I promise. You'll learn how to talk to people again.
So if after a bit of bull**** banter with someone, look at the movies that are currently out, and pick one you think is popular or this person will like, and ask if they want to go. This was how I made my first friends in college. I chatted with them about the class, and then asked about a a movie. I figured the worst they would say was no, and no to a movie I can rationalize as not being personal.
These are just ideas and tips that have worked for me when I was in similar shoes.
GAD responds better to therapy than meds, so don't get too discouraged at this point. You *can* get better.
Feel free to PM me.
One of my very best friends in the world suffered from very very crippling anxiety, social and otherwise, and was morbidly obese. I was one of her few IRL friends from junior high.
I have had plenty of mental health struggles myself. I still made it to residency, although I question if it was worth it, but that has less to do with my ability to cope (eg because I did and finished) and more to do with the way medicine is.
Anyway, my friend didn't get help for many many years. She did eventually and has a good career, relationships with family and new friends, and lost a lot of weight most importantly by taking great care of herself, walked off the weight (seriously, just walking, too heavy/knee problems to do more vigorous) and eating a healthy diet (not extreme, just healthy).
You can get better and do this. Sounds trite, but really.
There are separate issues here. If you were having no struggles at all and had a perfect app for med school, I would still caution you not to go / think extra twice about it, explore other careers and medicine more fully.
*You don't have to give up on med school over this*
but regardless should seek help, and consider other careers, just cuz.
As far as your app goes, what has happened can be repaired, it does not mean you cannot get in somewhere despite what has happened. However, that does not mean you should continue to struggle and dig this hole of grades / what not deeper.
I don't know what your finances are re: school and getting help.
I would take time from school or take the least and easiest clases you can that you can do well or may even help you (if you must maintain enrollment for financial reasons). Psychology, sociology, physical education classes (great way to get credit and work out, often Pass/No pass, it OK to have pass/no pass in some classes for med school), health studies, nutrition, stuff like that maybe? Just don't continue to damage your GPA. Better to have a gap and come back strong to explain to adcom than to keep on with grades like this.
You can do some easy extracurriculars to fill in time. Physician shadowing doesn't require much of you besides showing up. I've shadowed psychiatrists, you could contact some directly, or if there's a med school nearby look up what psych's are affiliated with the school and contact them. Shadowing psychs isn't in high demand by pre-meds because it's not as sexy as surgery or other fields whatevs, so they are often thrilled a student wants to shadow (if patients allow, you have to sign confidentiality papers and ask patient permission) and you'll just sit and listen. Psychs spend so much time listening they love to yak given half the chance. So you just show up, put a smile on, ask a few questions, and that's it. You can get a good letter, it looks great to adcom to have this experience and appear psychologically saavy to mental health issues, and you can actually learn a lot to help yourself too. You can also shadow some 12 step programs too. Volunteering. There's volunteer stuff that's pretty low on effort. You can even look on craigslist.
Study groups are a good thing. Cheap campus events even by yourself can get you out and lift your spirits (or skip that if going alone just makes you sadder.) Meetup groups online. A lot of lonely people go there to connect. There are anxiety support groups even.
Speaking 12 Step groups, research some. Google Adult Children of Alocoholics/Dysfunctional families and see if that fits, or Overeater Anonymous (don't know if that fits you), Codependents Anonymous, and online is a website SEA (self esteem anonymous) with great info. If there's a 12 Step group that may apply to you, take the plunge and go. You don't have to talk at these meetings, you can just listen, but it can really help, it's an accepting bunch, a lot of people who will understand and reach out to you if you identify with any of these groups and if they're close by. Some of these groups offer tele groups if no group meets near you. Groups are essentially free, they suggest a donation at each group but it's optional and small like $2-4 per meeting.
I had to look up strategies to make friends when I left high school, because college just doesn't put you with people depending where you live (I can't assume you're in a dorm). There's co-ops, getting a roommate situation.
Go early to class and sit next to someone there and say hi and introduce yourself. Ask what they think of ___ assignment or teacher. When there's opportunity, think of something to compliment someone in the grocery store on.
"I like your earrings. Where did you get them?" "I like that comment you made in class." It seems odd, dumb, forced to your socially anxious brain, but people will either not say much or be excited to talk to you. Little interactions, like complimenting strangers, will make you feel better, I promise. You'll learn how to talk to people again.
So if after a bit of bull**** banter with someone, look at the movies that are currently out, and pick one you think is popular or this person will like, and ask if they want to go. This was how I made my first friends in college. I chatted with them about the class, and then asked about a a movie. I figured the worst they would say was no, and no to a movie I can rationalize as not being personal.
These are just ideas and tips that have worked for me when I was in similar shoes.
GAD responds better to therapy than meds, so don't get too discouraged at this point. You *can* get better.
Feel free to PM me.