I graduated May of 2008 from UVA. I was one of those premeds that began to study for the mcats my second year..I finally took them January 2008 and got a 22Q. I was scoring 27-30 on the practices so I was not sure why I did so badly. I took all of the Kaplan practice tests, did all of the aamc practice tests, listened to all of the audio osmosis and took notes, and read all of the EK books. I did some of the 1001 series questions and most of the practice subject tests that Kaplan offers. Currently I am working in the city, but the commute is killing me. I commute 3 hours per day and so when I come back from work I am exhausted. I am planning to re-take mcats in late april. My job isnt exactly medically related but I am getting ready to organize and lead a medical webinar where I get to design the course and so forth. Some days are better than others. Everyone in the office knows that I am planning to take mcats in the spring and my superviser is really encouraging me to stay and has even offered me the option to work part time as well as work from home some of that part time.. I think they would even be considering to give me a month off right before the exam. I think mcat is a mental battle for me: I am obviously a nervous test taker and mcat has been very hard because of this. I was the type of person who studied 6 months for the SATs!! So MCAT is like another demon on itself. I think that I need to devote full attention to this and the only way would be eat, breathe and live the exam..I was going to give my two weeks dec. 2 and start studying officially when my two weeks were up where I would be studying for 8 to 10 hrs a day from December to April..I have worked at this place for 6 months. I love working with my supervisor. Even though I am not the biggest fan of my work place I think that I will be involved in more projects that I will like and will also work with more medical clients. I think I would be able to use this experience to my advantage in my interview if I can talk about interacting closely with doctors maybe not necessarily in a hospital environment but designing educational tools for medical students. I feel like I am so confused. When I graduated, all I wanted to do is serve people. I still want the same thing but its just difficult. I still live at home so it is not like I really need the money. However, should I try to work part time or should I just dedicate these few months to this exam? I am opting for the latter. This job market is making me very nervous as I do not know if around may I will find another job. But then I dont know if I should be focusing on the job right now. Someone please give me clarity on all of this. And someone please tell me that there is more to life than living like a zombie where you are just going to work everyday without meaning or purpose in my life. Should I just quit the job, take the exam, and get another job or find another opportunity I really love where I really get to serve people? I dont know. When I think of my future I think of working mainly with underserved communities both locally and internationally. I think of working with organizations like doctors without borders, WHO, unicef..but sometimes all of these dreams seem so far and out of reach..i feel like I try and study so hard..yet I feel like I have gotten behind and I just dont know anymore..