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Hello all,
I hope this finds you well. To make a long story short I am about halfway through residency and utterly miserable. Looking back I have been 100% miserable, more or less, every day of this journey. Such few small pockets have brought me joy. In fact I’m only happy when I’m with my loved ones and not even close to anything medicine related.
Looking back I should of left early on but I believed it would “get better” and to “press on”. Well here I am 425,000 in debt and miserable beyond belief.
If I had no debt I would of left years ago. But I just have no idea what I could do that would pay off my debt and provide for my family. No idea where to even look or turn.
I understand I most likely won’t have a career that compares compensation wise and to me I’m 100% ok with that. I just want to pay off my debt, provide for my family, and be happy.
Thank you for any insight or help you may provide.
Pediatrics
I do appreciate your input, truly. But, I’m really trying to seek feedback as to possible alternative careers. I don’t want to do this anymore. If I had no debt I would already be out..
In fact I’m only happy when I’m with my loved ones and not even close to anything medicine related.
Hello all,
I hope this finds you well. To make a long story short I am about halfway through residency and utterly miserable. Looking back I have been 100% miserable, more or less, every day of this journey. Such few small pockets have brought me joy. In fact I’m only happy when I’m with my loved ones and not even close to anything medicine related.
Looking back I should of left early on but I believed it would “get better” and to “press on”. Well here I am 425,000 in debt and miserable beyond belief.
If I had no debt I would of left years ago. But I just have no idea what I could do that would pay off my debt and provide for my family. No idea where to even look or turn.
I understand I most likely won’t have a career that compares compensation wise and to me I’m 100% ok with that. I just want to pay off my debt, provide for my family, and be happy.
Thank you for any insight or help you may provide.
I thought about Path or Rads. I'm double boarded in a clinical and path specialty. I much prefer the path side and only practice one day a week in the clinical realm. As you pointed out, we don't know more specifically what makes the OP miserable currently, so it's tough to say. Preventive/Occ would be a smoother transition to getting out there and working, but I guess Path or Rads would also be an option. While very niche, Peds Path and Peds Rads do exist as well.Options:
2. Swicth fields. Already mentioned is PM/OM. Unlikely you'd be happy in path. You haven't mentioned what makes you miserable, so it's hard to give advice.
The limited waiver is beneficial for those who have already been paying back loans for 10 years but were on the wrong repayment plan or didn't have eligible loans. It's probably not useful to someone halfway through residency now, because chances are they are already on an income-driven repayment plan and in most cases are with a qualified employer (unless OP is with an HCA residency, in which case, I can see why they hate life).Also take a look at the current situation of PSLF--there are some leniencies happening right now that may allow you to count payments already made during residency, or "payments" made during the $0 pandemic payment freeze, even if you weren't thinking about PSLF initially. I am not an expert on the details since I've been thinking PSLF from the beginning and don't need a waiver. https://studentaid.gov/announcements-events/pslf-limited-waiver
Rads is rough, definitely not lifestyle, and a longgggggg road.I thought about Path or Rads. I'm double boarded in a clinical and path specialty. I much prefer the path side and only practice one day a week in the clinical realm. As you pointed out, we don't know more specifically what makes the OP miserable currently, so it's tough to say. Preventive/Occ would be a smoother transition to getting out there and working, but I guess Path or Rads would also be an option. While very niche, Peds Path and Peds Rads do exist as well.
Are you in ER? I would imagine ER is tough. I hated my ER rotation. I think the big problem with Medicine is how brutal the path is. The shifts we are forced to endure, the menial pay, the abuse from attending and nurses - it should stop. I don't know if there is any other profession out there that's like that. The problem is that the massive debt incurred for many people is soooo problematic. It's tough. I think a culture change is desperately needed.Boy oh boy, you are me. A few weeks ago, I resigned from residency. I could not take it anymore. I HATED it and was completely miserable. There was no fixing it. I also stayed because I have obscene amounts of debt. There was no “tough it out” because there is a zero percent chance I would ever want to do patient care. This is not what I thought it was going to be. Since resigning, I have a huge weight lifted. I actually feel relieved and open to possibilities. I got my license and am searching non clinical jobs either as a medical science liaison or some entry level consulting. There are things out there, not tons, but there are things. You are not stuck. I am happy making a fraction of the salary and not having my soul sold to the devil. I plan to pay 10% of my loans until I die and they’re discharged. On these forums, you will find nothing but resistance to quitting the traditional path. Not everyone has to be traditional and trust me, health care is going to **** quickly and things will only get worse. Happy to be out. Cheers 🍻
No I ended up doing family medicine which is equally torture. I completely agree with you. The debt is what gets people forced on the hampster wheel as I call it. I will look into that thank you. I have been looking on drop out club too which has some interesting opportunities as well.Are you in ER? I would imagine ER is tough. I hated my ER rotation. I think the big problem with Medicine is how brutal the path is. The shifts we are forced to endure, the menial pay, the abuse from attending and nurses - it should stop. I don't know if there is any other profession out there that's like that. The problem is that the massive debt incurred for many people is soooo problematic. It's tough. I think a culture change is desperately needed.
Good luck. You may want to look at LookforZebras.
Well I personally think that despite you disliking the specialty finishing would have been best even if you don't do a single clinical day in your life. For IM/FM there are many administrtrive non clinical options. But without finishing residency it becomes much harder. Just reality. Best of luckNo I ended up doing family medicine which is equally torture. I completely agree with you. The debt is what gets people forced on the hampster wheel as I call it. I will look into that thank you. I have been looking on drop out club too which has some interesting opportunities as well.
Make sure you truly don't like any part of Peds AT ALL and the issue isn't just with you not liking your particular residency program. Residency is hard almost anywhere and often doesn't fully represent your daily schedule as an attending. Do others in your program feel feel the same way? If so you may just be in malignant residency program (while peds residencies aren't notorious for being malignant, I'm sure there are always exceptions). If you can power through residency, you may be able to find a niche within peds that you like and do that full time. If the issue is specific with Peds you may be able to switch specialties but this isn't always easy to do (especially for the more competitive ones).Hello all,
I hope this finds you well. To make a long story short I am about halfway through residency and utterly miserable. Looking back I have been 100% miserable, more or less, every day of this journey. Such few small pockets have brought me joy. In fact I’m only happy when I’m with my loved ones and not even close to anything medicine related.
Looking back I should of left early on but I believed it would “get better” and to “press on”. Well here I am 425,000 in debt and miserable beyond belief.
If I had no debt I would of left years ago. But I just have no idea what I could do that would pay off my debt and provide for my family. No idea where to even look or turn.
I understand I most likely won’t have a career that compares compensation wise and to me I’m 100% ok with that. I just want to pay off my debt, provide for my family, and be happy.
Thank you for any insight or help you may provide.
Make sure you truly don't like and part Peds AT ALL and the issue isn't just with you not liking your residency program. Residency is hard almost anywhere and often doesn't fully represent your daily schedule as an attending. Do others in your program feel feel the same way? If so you may just be in malignant residency program (while peds residencies aren't notorious for being malignant, I'm sure there are always exceptions). If you can power through residency, you may be able to find a niche within peds that you like and do that full time.
It's not easy to switch full time non-clinical work overnight and make as much as a physician right away doing non-clinical work. Most people who transition out of clinical practice do it gradually over several years. For example, they may work part time as a clinician while working part time in their non-clinical work until they can build enough volume in their new line of work to make it full time and slowly decrease their clinical work over time. But obviously this transition can only happen after residency since you can't be a part-time resident.
Since peds is near the bottom of physician compensation, it it will likely be hard to pay back $425k in debt even practicing peds full time. In your case, going for PSLF is a good option for someone with a high debt to income ratio.
Rads and path are often popular choices for those wanting to switch out of patient-centered clinical specialties for reasons like having to deal with difficult patients or lots of paperwork or working long hours. Decent choices buRads is rough, definitely not lifestyle, and a longgggggg road.
Rads and path are often popular choices for those wanting to switch out of patient-centered clinical specialties for reasons like having to deal with difficult patients or lots of paperwork or working long hours. Decent choices bu
Rads has long training (1 prelim year + 4 years + 1 year of nearly required fellowship). OP's intern year likely counts toward the prelim year requirement so that's still another 5 years. Also rads is still moderately competitive and quite a bit harder to get into than peds so no guarantee OP will match. And while the lifestyle in rads residency may be better than most other specialties, nowadays it's rarely the case as an attending (unless you work in academics or VA for significantly less pay). Radiology is a 24 hr business and reimbursements for imaging are decreasing all the time so radiologists are working long hours including nights and weekends, and reading very high volumes that are often not safe.
Path is still pretty cush with minimal call responsibilities and has always had once of the lowest burnout rates of any specialty. The 2 major problems are that pay is a lot less than rads, and the job market has always been tight since there tends to a good portion of older pathologists who aren't retiring. To be competitive in the job market, many pathology residents have to do a fellowship and will have to be geographically VERY flexible.
I remember in residency we'd have a radiologist come to our table rounds on Wednesdays and we'd show him interesting or difficult imaging from the previous week and have him talk to us about them. The dude sounded like an IM expert. He knew the pathology, disease progression, the treatment, AND how to read the films, CT/MRIs of what seemed like everything we threw at him. It was then that I realized radiology probably wasn't as easy as I thought it was.intelllectually i think it's one of the hardest specialites out there
Is there a particular area of non-clinical work you are looking for advice on? Are you interested in staying in healthcare and doing something like IT or QI? Do you have a research background? Would you like a job that was 25% clinical and 75% something else? Did you have a different job before medical school that you liked more?
Right now you asked a very vague question that has a million different answers. Technically you can quit residency and go get a job at Starbucks and it would be non-clinical.
If you want useful advice you probably need to give a little bit more information regarding what you hate about your current residency and what you don't hate doing.
Because it's objectively a terrible decision from a financial perspective. So it's really, really important that one make sure that they absolutely positively cannot make it through residency without damaging their mental health before they quit. If the OP needs to quit then they need to quit, but we're all raising legitimate concerns.Boy oh boy, you are me. A few weeks ago, I resigned from residency. I could not take it anymore. I HATED it and was completely miserable. There was no fixing it. I also stayed because I have obscene amounts of debt. There was no “tough it out” because there is a zero percent chance I would ever want to do patient care. This is not what I thought it was going to be. Since resigning, I have a huge weight lifted. I actually feel relieved and open to possibilities. I got my license and am searching non clinical jobs either as a medical science liaison or some entry level consulting. There are things out there, not tons, but there are things. You are not stuck. I am happy making a fraction of the salary and not having my soul sold to the devil. I plan to pay 10% of my loans until I die and they’re discharged. On these forums, you will find nothing but resistance to quitting the traditional path. Not everyone has to be traditional and trust me, health care is going to **** quickly and things will only get worse. Happy to be out. Cheers 🍻
Not just that but also very few people will hire a physician who has not finished training. There is limited validity to hiring someone w essentially no clinical how to. I know of a number of people who couldn’t stand clinical medicine and quit and did non clinical and many did well but the common factor is that they all finished training and were able to market that.Because it's objectively a terrible decision from a financial perspective. So it's really, really important that one make sure that they absolutely positively cannot make it through residency without damaging their mental health before they quit. If the OP needs to quit then they need to quit, but we're all raising legitimate concerns.
It's come up a couple of times, but again it's worth finishing residency EVEN IF you want to do non-clinical because getting to say you are board-certified increases your earning potential substantially.
I came to this thread late. I just scanned though the all the postings. It doesn't seem that any one suggest working for an insurance company as the medical review doctor on insurance payment claims.
---Nice clean desk job with a M-F / 9 to 5 schedule
---Never, NEVER see a patient face to face and hear their BS.
---You trade hospital bureaucracy for corporate bureaucracy. (Corporate crap is at least different Crap.)
---Good to Very Good benefit package.
---As one of the few MD's in the place you may actually get some respect.
---The whole idea of being sued for a bad clinical decision disappears. (If you are involved in a legal issue the insurance company has an army of attorneys.)
---The Insurance company might just have a loan repayment program too.
I didn't see where @Saddleshoes said anything about not finishing residency first.Yes but given the massive amount of doctors who have finished residency and are board certified 99.999999% of these jobs go to doctors who have finished training. What would a person who has not finished residency know about clinical criteria, etc? And most of these REQUIRE board certification.
I didn't see where @Saddleshoes said anything about not finishing residency first.
Not if one is paying attention.Just mentioning this in general, it seems OP wants to quit residency and then someone else mentioned they did quit residency - so it kind of all flows.
Lol someone is a tough cranky cookie!Not if one is paying attention.
Nah, just some small talk amongst ourselves until we hear back from the OP since they seem to have somewhat ghosted us. lol.Lol someone is a tough cranky cookie!
I mean, when I do a peer review as a peds endo and have someone trained as a surgeon denying my claim... they don't know much about clinical criteria in my field either. Peer review is rarely truly 'peer'.Yes but given the massive amount of doctors who have finished residency and are board certified 99.999999% of these jobs go to doctors who have finished training. What would a person who has not finished residency know about clinical criteria, etc? And most of these REQUIRE board certification.
True, but if someone who has an MD/DO without any clinical training says "Dr Mvenus929" claim is rejected - you would likely be like what the heck?I mean, when I do a peer review as a peds endo and have someone trained as a surgeon denying my claim... they don't know much about clinical criteria in my field either. Peer review is rarely truly 'peer'.
I say it regardless of who is on the other end of the phone.True, but if someone who has an MD/DO without any clinical training says "Dr Mvenus929" claim is rejected - you would likely be like what the heck?
I would expect nothing less 🙂I say it regardless of who is on the other end of the phone.
I mean, when I do a peer review as a peds endo and have someone trained as a surgeon denying my claim... they don't know much about clinical criteria in my field either. Peer review is rarely truly 'peer'.
Uhhh… yeah… I question allthe time when someone who has no clue about why they are rejecting what they are rejecting… and ask for their name and npi number, so I can add that to my note so the pt and anyone else that reads note who rejected the medication or imaging.True, but if someone who has an MD/DO without any clinical training says "Dr Mvenus929" claim is rejected - you would likely be like what the heck?
Uhhh… yeah… I question allthe time when someone who has no clue about why they are rejecting what they are rejecting… and ask for their name and npi number, so I can add that to my note so the pt and anyone else that reads note who rejected the medication or imaging.
I also cite studies and guidelines on why my medical decision is valid… endocrinologists are nerdy like that…I have yet to have a P2P denied…and it’s generally not a peer…
True, but if someone who has an MD/DO without any clinical training says "Dr Mvenus929" claim is rejected - you would likely be like what the heck?
I rarely know the exact background of the person I'm talking to, so if I feel that a therapy is indicated, I am like 'what the heck' regardless. I had one insurance deny approval of a GnRH agonist for precocious puberty because the bone age was congruent (it was actually advanced--the radiologist didn't read it correctly, as I stated in my note), and the LH "wasn't elevated" (it was in the puberty range... which is why I was applying for the GnRH agonist in the first place). It was overturned with P2P (though I personally didn't do the P2P due to a series of other issues). Insurances are in the business to make money and denying claims and making physicians (or their staff) appeal denials just gives them more time to get money.
Recently, I had insurance deny a claim for a medication and was about to get all fired up about it because as far as I was aware, it was the only medication in the class approved for pediatrics. Turns out, the alternative they suggested was approved in pediatrics about 4 months ago and was a less complicated regimen for my patient anyway. Win win.
There's always teachingHello all,
I hope this finds you well. To make a long story short I am about halfway through residency and utterly miserable. Looking back I have been 100% miserable, more or less, every day of this journey. Such few small pockets have brought me joy. In fact I’m only happy when I’m with my loved ones and not even close to anything medicine related.
Looking back I should of left early on but I believed it would “get better” and to “press on”. Well here I am 425,000 in debt and miserable beyond belief.
If I had no debt I would of left years ago. But I just have no idea what I could do that would pay off my debt and provide for my family. No idea where to even look or turn.
I understand I most likely won’t have a career that compares compensation wise and to me I’m 100% ok with that. I just want to pay off my debt, provide for my family, and be happy.
Thank you for any insight or help you may provide.
There's always teaching
Take a careful look at my avatar, and underneath it.Are you done with residency or still in residency?
You're a cat??? I must say you hide it well.Take a careful look at my avatar, and underneath it.
Sorry the reply was meant for OP! My apologies.Take a careful look at my avatar, and underneath it.
@Dral Didn’t ghost
Sorry everyone. On a busy icu rotation with q4 call (ie no life). Will respond with more depth when I get a moment
Thank you VERY much for everyone who has contributed so far. I will provide more depth when I can.
I think it would be too long to tag everyone so I’ll just try to summate:
It took me a really long time to figure out if it was just my program I disliked or peds in general. I’ve concluded it’s both. For my program it is indeed quite malignant. Rumors daily. Admin who believe rumors and then discipline residents based solely on the rumors, etc. I could really go on for days but I don’t see the point. All I know is that the scheme is investigating us due to how malignant it is and our acgme surveys so there’s that…
As far peds in general: I do love children and I really enjoy being goofy with them. But that’s where the buck stops as far as my enjoyment of the job. Rounding is like dying by a million paper cuts, notes hell followed by more notes hell (useless notes mind you). I don’t do anything. Literally what do we do????? Intervention is next to nothing. It’s mostly social work. I’m convinced peds residency doesn’t need to be 3 years long. I miss doing procedures. So much. I love working with my hands (I was torn between peds and anesthesia in med school). Figured I’d go into icu but I think maybe I just had a good? Med school experience but the amount of procedures is not nearly as often as I expected or want. To really cram home this point I asked my wife if she’s noticed I’m ever happy about work. And she, a non-medicine person, said, “I’ve only seen you happy after you got to do a procedure.”
I don’t really have a peds “personality” and the constant passive aggressive bull**** runs me up a tree (I think I have a more cut and dry what you see is what you get type of personality). Sure people can say to focus on the work and not the people but stereotypes exist for a reason and I cannot see myself working with such a group for my professional career. I desire the environment with an undying passion. Even a post here is what I would call passive aggressive, unhelpful, and, imo, the typical abusive response seen often in a pediatric residency. Just ain’t for me.
I like the OR, resus, and procedures of nicu but the rounding was a HARD stop and small set of diseases seems like it would get boring
I liked the acuity of PICU but don’t enjoy the bread and butter of asthma. Also rounding.
Considered PEM but it basically seems like urgent care which is ok but I don’t want to waste 3 more years to do what I consider to be urgent care….
At this point I don’t really know what to do…. I think anesthesia might be a good fit but worried about doing the match all over and really what is diff about my app compared to being a med student? It would be a finished residency and an obligated residency research project. Maybe that will matter to PDs? Unsure
But besides that idea at a loss. Really a huge loss.
The situation just makes me sad tbh. Perhaps it’s my own fault for being naive about how medicine really is. Dunno