I'm about 2 months into first year and I'm doing poorly. Not in all my classes, but in the ones that matter. If something doesn't change, I'm not going to make it to next semester. There doesn't seem to be a higher order to either anatomy or biochem. My biggest problem is how pointless studying feels for anatomy and bio chem. I just can't study for a sustained period of time when learning one thing neither relates to nor helps me learn another. There's no Aha! moment when studying. There's nothing to understand or 'get'. You study the urea cycle for and hour, and the only reward is being more familiar with the urea cycle. ex: topoisomerase II in microbes is susceptible to water metal ion bridges when human topo II is not. Interesting, sure, but irrelevant to literally every other thing I've learned in bio chem. Rinse and repeat for the next 2 years? Is this how it's supposed to be? Is this why everyone says medical school sucks? This is the least academically rewarding experience I've ever had.