Hey everyone, I thought I'd reach out to people who actually are in my shoes. Kinda personal but im desperate. I'm starting pharmacy school and I'm so confused. It's been my dream since I was a child and when I finally got there I'm having doubts. I don't know if it's fear or if it's what I want. I chickened out the first time due to my anxiety and now it's my last shot. Another problem I have is my school is 2 hours away from my home, my boyfriend of 5 years proposed to me. He doesn't support the fact that I will be living alone and it took a lot of convincing to bring up the commute process. Is it doable? Is a 4 hour commute 3-4 days a week sane? Along with responsibilities of a husband and passing pharmacy school? I guess I can't have the best of both worlds here but I'm trying to get opinions. My heart is torn between my education and the love of my life. He can't move due to work and it's literally my last shot at my PharmD. I have no emotional support or financial support. I'm depending on loans without him and fear that my focus and concentration will be impacted due to what I've been through. I'll graduate when I'm 30, I really want kids but I don't know where to start. I'm sorry with my sob story but I'm just lost. This the closest school to my home, no he won't wait, please don't be mean with your responses. I'm new to this. Thank you all:/ what do you guys think?