I have been reading SDN posts for about a year now, but have never posted anything ever on the internet...so here I go... I would like some honest feedback/advice regarding my situation. I graduated from an ivy league university back in '99. I completed about half of my pre-meds there and did poorly in them. Unfortunately, I pretty much did really poorly the first two years of college in all subjects because of a severe bout of depression which eventually required that I take a one-year medical leave. When I got back from the medical leave, I did much, much better. However, because of my dismal grades early on I only graduated with a 2.99 GPA. Very frustrating. I was ignorant about the significance of a GPA when I first got to college since we didn't have GPA's in high school and both my parents never went to college (they barely squeeked by high school) and were happy to just see me "pass" my classes. I worked very hard in high school, lived in an tumultous home where neither one of my parents really cared about my schooling (getting a ride to school from them was sometimes a struggle) and both my parents created situations that were emotionally scarring (ie. dad dated a woman that was a crazy and hated me because she didn't like my mother and would stalk me, chase me with her car, and continously threaten to kill me...this went on for over a year). Despite all this, I worked fervently and managed to do well enough to get into an ivy league university. I focused all my attentions on doing well in school so that I could get college scholarships and get out of the house. I succeeded in doing this, but I think all the years of turmoil I had suffered came crashing down on me when I was finally away from it all. This, along with a debilitating depression which runs in my family, lead me to not reach my full potential in college. Once I did focus, I found myself near the top of all the classes I took getting mostly A's. I find myself now working in a company that is doing extremely well financially and getting paid fairly well. I am now married and have a 2-year old daughter. My husband is a dream come true...supportive, successful and loving. I have gone through extensive therapy and I now feel so fulfilled in every aspect of my life except one. I still have a very strong desire to go to med school. I spent a lot of time in college shadowing surgeons and watching hundreds of surgeries. I also did rounds with them and the interns. I loved it! As I sit in my cube, I feel so disappointed and frustrated because I feel as though I may have thrown my chance for med school away. I still keep in touch with some of the doctors I shadowed and they all highly suggest that I apply to med school, but I don't have the courage to let them know that my grades in college were terrible. I feel like I've disappointed them and myself. I know GPA's are extremely important. I know that I would be successful in a post-bac program, but I feel my chances of getting into a reputable program are slim. I live in Rhode Island near Brown University. Brown used to have a post-bac program but they discontinued it. The University of Rhode Island states on their website that they have a post-bac program. Does anyone know anything about URI's post-bac program? Since I have taken half of my premed courses already (Chem I & II, Physics I, Calculus, Cell Biology) can I apply to formal post-bac programs? Most seem to stress that they are for "career-changers" and not for students who have already taken any of the necessary pre-med courses. It has been 7-10 years since I took these courses, so I feel that I should re-take some of them but I don't know what med schools would think of this. Sorry for the long, rambling post. Any advice/suggestions would be really appreciated! Thanks!!!