Hi everyone-will try to keep this brief as possible but was looking for some advice/perhaps experiences of those who have been in similar situations.
Since I was a medical student, I was torn between 2 fellowships- ID and pulm/crit. I did electives in both as a medical student AND as a resident. I participated in research projects in both fields. I tried very hard to talk with fellows/attendings in both specialties over the years- in short, I tried my absolute very best to make the best-researched, best-informed decision that I could. I considered doing a fellowship in ID/critical care, but I was deterred for several reasons- firstly, there are not a lot of these programs around, and I was (and will forever be, for family reasons) geographically restricted. I was also advised by people in both specialties (including an ID/CC attending who only practiced ID) that the job market doesn't really support that combination- most people end up having to work in one or other of the specialties, and although I do enjoy critical care, I didn't want to risk picking something that would relegate me to solely be an intensivist, and I didn't want to pick ID and never work again in the ICU. In the end I settled on pulm/crit because it seemed like the best way to have flexibility- I'd still get the ICU and a healthy dose of ID overlap in both the ICU and pulm.
However, having completed pulm/crit fellowship, I really am having regrets that I didn't pursue ID fellowship. I absolutely still enjoy the ICU but I really just don't find pulmonary to be fulfilling and I just genuinely find ID so much more interesting and fulfilling. (I could expound on this much more in a constructive way if I were writing a personal statement but I'll spare everyone the unnecessary details). I'm a non-traditional (took some time off after undergrad before med school to save up money to apply to med school) and come from very modest means, so if I were a few years younger and if I could keep going on a fellows' salary a little longer, I would have just pursued ID fellowship immediately after PCCM and called it a day. However, that's just not realistic.
My partner has been extremely supportive (he's known me the entire time I've been having this debate with myself so he, too, can attest that I've been debating this for close to a decade now...) and we decided that I will work as an attending for a few years and then, if I still really haven't found the professional and personal satisfaction I desire in my current specialty, we will see where we are financially and perhaps I will go back and complete an ID fellowship. It goes without saying that I would never put my sense of 'personal fulfillment' in front of my family's well-being so if there is not a realistic way I can do this, I will deal with it and move on.
But that being said- wondering if anyone here pursued a second fellowship a few years after a first. Besides the considerable financial considerations (decrease in salary for 2 years + opportunity cost of that lost salary), I'm wondering if it's feasible because I'm not sure how one crafts a reasonable application. I don't know how I would get LORs for a new application after being an attending for a few years in a different specialty. My research (mostly QI, and not a lot at that) is all related to the overlap between PCCM and ID so I have that going for me (I guess). I can't really do "rotations" in another specialty as an attending. I would still be geographically limited so if I didn't get into a fellowship in my current city (I do have several options although most are competitive institutions), again, I would just have to move on from this since an ability to move anywhere in the country for the sake of fellowship isn't an option. I was always a fairly strong applicant throughout this whole process (honored every single one of my clinical rotations in med school, strong step scores on all three steps, chief resident, good evaluations/good professional and clinical reputation throughout medical school, residency, and fellowship) but I imagine a lot of this kind of stuff is less important the further you go along and so I'm not sure how to be a 'strong applicant' when I've been an attending for a few years trying to pursue a different specialty.
I truly appreciate anyone taking the time to read this and perhaps offer some thoughts. Please don't quote- I tried to keep the details as scarce as possible but still needed to give enough so my post isn't so vague as to be useless for someone to give advice.
Since I was a medical student, I was torn between 2 fellowships- ID and pulm/crit. I did electives in both as a medical student AND as a resident. I participated in research projects in both fields. I tried very hard to talk with fellows/attendings in both specialties over the years- in short, I tried my absolute very best to make the best-researched, best-informed decision that I could. I considered doing a fellowship in ID/critical care, but I was deterred for several reasons- firstly, there are not a lot of these programs around, and I was (and will forever be, for family reasons) geographically restricted. I was also advised by people in both specialties (including an ID/CC attending who only practiced ID) that the job market doesn't really support that combination- most people end up having to work in one or other of the specialties, and although I do enjoy critical care, I didn't want to risk picking something that would relegate me to solely be an intensivist, and I didn't want to pick ID and never work again in the ICU. In the end I settled on pulm/crit because it seemed like the best way to have flexibility- I'd still get the ICU and a healthy dose of ID overlap in both the ICU and pulm.
However, having completed pulm/crit fellowship, I really am having regrets that I didn't pursue ID fellowship. I absolutely still enjoy the ICU but I really just don't find pulmonary to be fulfilling and I just genuinely find ID so much more interesting and fulfilling. (I could expound on this much more in a constructive way if I were writing a personal statement but I'll spare everyone the unnecessary details). I'm a non-traditional (took some time off after undergrad before med school to save up money to apply to med school) and come from very modest means, so if I were a few years younger and if I could keep going on a fellows' salary a little longer, I would have just pursued ID fellowship immediately after PCCM and called it a day. However, that's just not realistic.
My partner has been extremely supportive (he's known me the entire time I've been having this debate with myself so he, too, can attest that I've been debating this for close to a decade now...) and we decided that I will work as an attending for a few years and then, if I still really haven't found the professional and personal satisfaction I desire in my current specialty, we will see where we are financially and perhaps I will go back and complete an ID fellowship. It goes without saying that I would never put my sense of 'personal fulfillment' in front of my family's well-being so if there is not a realistic way I can do this, I will deal with it and move on.
But that being said- wondering if anyone here pursued a second fellowship a few years after a first. Besides the considerable financial considerations (decrease in salary for 2 years + opportunity cost of that lost salary), I'm wondering if it's feasible because I'm not sure how one crafts a reasonable application. I don't know how I would get LORs for a new application after being an attending for a few years in a different specialty. My research (mostly QI, and not a lot at that) is all related to the overlap between PCCM and ID so I have that going for me (I guess). I can't really do "rotations" in another specialty as an attending. I would still be geographically limited so if I didn't get into a fellowship in my current city (I do have several options although most are competitive institutions), again, I would just have to move on from this since an ability to move anywhere in the country for the sake of fellowship isn't an option. I was always a fairly strong applicant throughout this whole process (honored every single one of my clinical rotations in med school, strong step scores on all three steps, chief resident, good evaluations/good professional and clinical reputation throughout medical school, residency, and fellowship) but I imagine a lot of this kind of stuff is less important the further you go along and so I'm not sure how to be a 'strong applicant' when I've been an attending for a few years trying to pursue a different specialty.
I truly appreciate anyone taking the time to read this and perhaps offer some thoughts. Please don't quote- I tried to keep the details as scarce as possible but still needed to give enough so my post isn't so vague as to be useless for someone to give advice.