Hopefully in 10+ years or so you can look back and see it as a blessing. I know it sounds weird, but so is life.
Maybe. I mean, I think on it and realize that if I had finished and graduated, with my conditions already being what they are, I probably wouldn't have survived my first year in practice, in all honesty. In that sense, I guess it is a bit of a blessing.
I also really do enjoy my current day job despite the low pay (most days, anyway), and I like that my interaction with non-medical staff (ie. patients, families, etc.) is limited which wouldn't been possible in vet med, in retrospect, especially in a GP setting. I do like freelancing, too, even if the stream of work isn't always steady.
Basically, as much as I miss the science and medicine aspects, I don't know that my particular personality and mental health challenges would have meshed well with the demands of being a working DVM; it's something that I couldn't have fully comprehended simply through my shadowing experiences, unfortunately, and it just sucks that I had to get into six figures worth of debt for nothing for me to realize it. I do at least have my BS and, truth be told, the weight of the debt is more psychological than financial at this point thanks to PAYE. It's more my impostor syndrome and sense of non-belongingness in vet school being validated, and just my feeling like an utter ***** and a failure and all that fun jazz.
Things are at least stable now, though. Those first few months were rough.