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I packed up my stuff and my kitty and came my parents for a few days so that I could give my now ex boyfriend some space. Hadn't heard from him in over a day so I called and he said he packed up his stuff and left.

I guess it's fine but I have no idea how to live alone anymore and I'm just not sure what I'm going to do from here or how I'm supposed to go home to an empty house.

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So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
 
sheltermed said:
I packed up my stuff and my kitty and came my parents for a few days so that I could give my now ex boyfriend some space. Hadn't heard from him in over a day so I called and he said he packed up his stuff and left.

I guess it's fine but I have no idea how to live alone anymore and I'm just not sure what I'm going to do from here or how I'm supposed to go home to an empty house.

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You have a dance party and do everything that you couldn't do while he was around. Watch what you want to watch, wear what you want to wear (especially if that is nothing), eat what you want to eat, sing at the top of your lungs if you so desire, cry at stupid movies, laugh at your own jokes, etc. These are the fun things you can do whenever you wish now.:horns:
 
Lupin21 said:
You have a dance party and do everything that you couldn't do while he was around. Watch what you want to watch, wear what you want to wear (especially if that is nothing), eat what you want to eat, sing at the top of your lungs if you so desire, cry at stupid movies, laugh at your own jokes, etc. These are the fun things you can do whenever you wish now.:horns:
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This.


I am currently painting my living room, music blaring, dancing around, wearing my undies because I'm a messy painter and don't want to ruin any clothes. I've also been drinking rather heavily since 9am...

This is how all the cool people spend their holiday weekends, right? Right??
 
Kaydubs, one of my best friends from vet school was in your same situation last year. She had to give up her equine internship and work as a tech at the practice until she passed. I definitely don't think you're less of a person. Spend the next few months diligently studying, hopefully get the migraines under control, and smash it next time. My friend passed on the third try, and I bet you can too. I'm sorry you're going through this. If you want to talk to someone who has been there for someone else in the same situation, PM me.

kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently.
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kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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I'm so sorry. I know it's not quite the same, but I failed a class the past semester, partially because I didn't understand the way the class was graded (your grade must fall within 2 standard deviations below the mean, I got a 72, needed a 73, ugh!) I have to take the reexam tomorrow. I feel so embarrassed. I haven't talked to anyone about this really except three classmates (2 of which were in the same position) and one professor. My family and friends don't even know. I hope 3rd time is the charm for you and that you can get your migraines under control. If you haven't already, you should speak to a doctor about your migraines, sometimes they can be a sign of a more significant problem.

You can do this! I believe in you and I don't think any less of you for it. Becoming a vet is so damn hard, and some people make it look easy, but most of us struggle through it and sometimes we trip and fall along the way, but you just have to get back up and keep going.
 
kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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Sending hugs your way
 
kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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I don't think not passing makes you "less of a human" at all. It sounds as if you've had a lot going on both times you took boards. I know you know your ****. You just need to take care of yourself now. I'd also suggest asking for testing accommodations to give yourself a little more time when taking it the next time. I know you've got this, but it is time to focus on you and getting yourself in a better place. I have no doubt you'll kill boards once you've done that. As always, if you ever need to rant, I'm around. 🙂
 
cowgirla said:
This.


I am currently painting my living room, music blaring, dancing around, wearing my undies because I'm a messy painter and don't want to ruin any clothes. I've also been drinking rather heavily since 9am...

This is how all the cool people spend their holiday weekends, right? Right??
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You know it!!
 
Love you kaydubs. You are no less of a person because of this, at all. I'm sorry that you had to give up your job/internship, and that your body is fighting against you (I know that feeling). I hope you are able to get your migraines under control soon. Sending you all of my love and good vibes. You'll get through this, no matter what happens. :biglove:
 
Thanks guise :biglove: I've been very selective about who I've told because of all of the negative pushback. I think doors close and somewhere a box of cookies opens or something. I'm considering veterinary social work melded with mental health something. It's not your typical path but maybe I can help more there than I could otherwise?
 
kaydubs said:
Thanks guise :biglove: I've been very selective about who I've told because of all of the negative pushback. I think doors close and somewhere a box of cookies opens or something. I'm considering veterinary social work melded with mental health something. It's not your typical path but maybe I can help more there than I could otherwise?
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You'll help a ton no matter which path you choose. Do what's right for you!

Feel free to message me here or on FB if you need to chat or rant at any point.
 
48 continuous hours of on call this weekend (a.k.a. resident got screwed with the holiday schedule).

Sat 8a-5p - 9 quiet hours at home. Finally feel like the cold I have is starting to get a little better.
Sat 5p - Sun 4a - at hospital for two imaging + surgery cases. Two cases in hospital also waiting in the wings, but stable enough to not go at 4am. Thank goodness, since my URI is getting worse.
Sun 4a- 8a - Skip showering. Try and fail to fall asleep. Go back to hospital for planned cases.
Sun 8a - 11p - 2 planned cases + 2 additional emergency cases. URI symptoms are worsening by the hour. Surgeon asks me if I'm the one he hears hacking up a lung outside the OR.
Sun 11p - Mon 8a - Cannot skip showering again, too filthy. Try and fail to fall asleep for a couple hours. Thankfully, got to sleep past end of call shift without phone ringing again.

By my counts, that's 48 hours on call, 26 of those hours spent in hospital, with all 26 of those hours occurring within a single 30-hour period. And I saw all 4 of my students who had 12-hour call shifts that coincided with mine.
I swear, if LA had tried to mix a colic in there, I probably would have had a conniption.
If I'm still sick by this Saturday when I finally have some vacation, I'm gonna be pissed.
I already don't want to go back in for a regular workday tomorrow.
 
A test does not define who you are. That particular test is a giant dingus. (I had a nightmare about it last night, actually). Kick it in the frickin balls for me this fall so it can stop haunting me, please. YOU got this! 😏

Also, I love that you want to help other people during a difficult time for yourself. Really reflects the awesome person you are.
 
sheltermed said:
I packed up my stuff and my kitty and came my parents for a few days so that I could give my now ex boyfriend some space. Hadn't heard from him in over a day so I called and he said he packed up his stuff and left.

I guess it's fine but I have no idea how to live alone anymore and I'm just not sure what I'm going to do from here or how I'm supposed to go home to an empty house.
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Sounds like it's time to plan a party, I'll bring beer and an N64.

kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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Much like applying to vet school, not everyone follows the same path. Some knock it out their first at-bat, and some of us aren't so fortunate. By no means does that make you less qualified or less of a person.

Your next test will come eventually, and you've been down this road before. So try to focus a little more on you this time. Get out and enjoy yourself, buy some old electronics from a garage sale and then just go hammertime on them, whatever gets rid of that stress and anxiety. No idea if you're much of a spiritual person, but at the very least meditation and having your thoughts go somewhere else might provide you with some relief.
 
kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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I remember a few years ago when the 15' and 16' bunch were having a hard time with something or another, and you always posted with such positivity and encouraged and supported those who were down. That's the wonderful type of person you are, and by golly you are are not any less of a person because you failed the NAVLE. Keep your head up high and kick the NAVLE's butt Kdubs, we are all rooting for you!:highfive:
 
Finally got someone to come cut hay for me and it's raining. (Please be a light rain!)
 
kaydubs said:
So, I haven't mentioned it on here, but it's something that has greatly affected my life recently. I know our community is amazing and supportive and I could really use all of the support there is at this time. In addition to my migraines destroying me (physically/emotionally/psychologically), I also failed boards. Twice. And am trapped in limbo for the next few months. I'm feeling okay about the next boards (I had migraines when I took boards both times and was severely depressed the first time that I sat for boards so I think this next time will be MY time) but it's been such a weight that I've been carrying around with me. Today, I'm turning down an internship (was supposed to be a job originally) and it's breaking my heart. Again. I've also been coping with my anxiety and depression so any good juju/karma/vibes would be appreciated. I am so fortunate to have family, friends, mentors and an amazing support system. But, my heart still does feel pretty raw (akin to having been tossed haphazardly into a blender with glass....and I'm still picking the shards out). I am so happy to have found this community and met so many wonderful people here. You all mean so much to me. If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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You so are not any less of a person and that test is dumb. Hang in there and know that we're all here for you. Love is being sent your way and feel free to PM me if you ever need anything.
 
kaydubs said:
If, for some reason, my not passing boards, makes me "less of a person" (since by the rest of the nation's standards, I am less human), please do NOT tell me as such. I really cannot take it at my current state.
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I'm pretty sure every one of us who has finished vet school knows a classmate who should have passed and didn't, and a classmate who passed and probably shouldn't have. I had a classmate who failed (twice, I think?), and I was stunned - she knows her stuff. Like, really well.

It's a necessary-but-crappy test, and it doesn't mean anything with regard to your worth.

As someone who pretty much approached 'panic' over that stupid test, I'm sorry you're stuck in that purgatory territory. It blows. You'll get through it. Just like you got into and through vet school.
 
Fingers crossed for you kd!

Meanwhile, today was a typical crazy Monday, and let's call roll:
Me - Insomnia acted up, maybe got a couple hours sleep.
Head doc - On call, up half the night with emergencies.
Other doc - Called in sick.
Part-time doc - Doesn't work Mondays.

Running a busy 4 doctor practice with the equivalent of one functional veterinarian = Total ****ing ****show.
 
Broke up with my SO today 4 days before our 5 year anniversary. While I know it needed to be done, in so incredibly sad because he is one of my closest friends and I've lost him forever now.
 
Jam. 🙁 so sorry to hear that. i know it needing to be done doesn't make it suck any less. If you need to talk to someone totally out of the situation, my inbox on here and fb is always open....
 
I'm rooting for you, @kaydubs ! There is so much more to you and who you are than that one exam. Sending you all the good vibes in the world.

Jam, sorry to hear your news. Even when you know it's the right thing to do, it doesn't hurt any less. 🙁

On my end, I have to be up in 5 hours, but people in my neighborhood are still shooting off g-d fireworks, and some of them are pretty close and loud. I miss living in a state where the f-ing things are banned. The only consolation is that the dog managed to fall asleep and isn't barking at them anymore. I hate the 4th of July.
 
I'm so sorry Jam 🙁. Sending hugs your way.
 
missdarjeeling said:
I'm rooting for you, @kaydubs ! There is so much more to you and who you are than that one exam. Sending you all the good vibes in the world.

Jam, sorry to hear your news. Even when you know it's the right thing to do, it doesn't hurt any less. 🙁

On my end, I have to be up in 5 hours, but people in my neighborhood are still shooting off g-d fireworks, and some of them are pretty close and loud. I miss living in a state where the f-ing things are banned. The only consolation is that the dog managed to fall asleep and isn't barking at them anymore. I hate the 4th of July.
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Hey, to be fair, few things are more American than nearly falling asleep at the wheel of your car on your needlessly long ass-crack-of-dawn commute to your low paying, exhausting, no-sick-leave-having, minimal-PTO job. This is how I celebrate. Don't judge.:clap:
 
missdarjeeling said:
Hey, to be fair, few things are more American than nearly falling asleep at the wheel of your car on your needlessly long ass-crack-of-dawn commute to your low paying, exhausting, no-sick-leave-having, minimal-PTO job. This is how I celebrate. Don't judge.:clap:
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So much America in this post
 
My shift tonight that should have taken 90 minutes or less took 4 hours.

Since it's a holiday, we were closed and only scheduled people come in and do morning/evening stuff. Morning co-worker left dirty dishes piled in every sink, counters a mess, exam table gross, nothing recorded in charts (actually, nothing was charted ALL WEEKEND), and on and on . . . Damn kid, what happened today?
 
kaydubs said:
I love y'all so damn much. Thank you for being kind to me. I could cry. So many happy tears.
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You are one of the most encouraging, sweetest people on here - you deserve some support and love in return 🙂 I'm so sorry about the NAVLE but I agree with the others - it's not indicative of the person or veterinarian that you are. It's a crazy multiple choice test that has so little to do with what we learned or what we need to know. Truth be told, knowledge does not make a good veterinarian - it's compassion, hard work and communication that make you good at what you do. Everything else can easily be VINed 🙂 Hang in there friend.
 
Apparently painting a living room, hallway and the ceilings of both uses every muscle in your body. I hurt. Everywhere. Wrestling a dozen barely broke horses for coggins tests today really didn't help.
 
cowgirla said:
Apparently painting a living room, hallway and the ceilings of both uses every muscle in your body. I hurt. Everywhere. Wrestling a dozen barely broke horses for coggins tests today really didn't help.
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OMG painting ceilings. The pain is real
 
Not looking forward to two weeks' worth of night shifts on this rotation. I am not someone who adjusts easily to time changes. Daylight savings messes me up for three weeks twice a year.
 
I've been cleaning and reorganizing my place for the better part of five days and I still feel like I've made no headway. The place is a mess.

However, I also get 1000% more anxious in dirty environments than other people do since my dad was a hoarder, so I may be blowing this out of proportion.

I just want it CLEAN!!! :help:
 
Cable companies. Verizon. Was supposed to come install Internet today. We've had this schedule for a week. They called today saying they don't have anyone to come out...we opt to downgrade our service and pick up the equipment to install ourselves. And of course, it's not working and won't connect to the internet. I've tried ever cable in the house, my modem/router and nothing is working. My roommate who is the account holder has been on the phone complaining for at least 2 hours. And no we won't get intenet (if they don't eff up again) until thursday
 
orca2011 said:
Cable companies. Verizon. Was supposed to come install Internet today. We've had this schedule for a week. They called today saying they don't have anyone to come out...we opt to downgrade our service and pick up the equipment to install ourselves. And of course, it's not working and won't connect to the internet. I've tried ever cable in the house, my modem/router and nothing is working. My roommate who is the account holder has been on the phone complaining for at least 2 hours. And no we won't get intenet (if they don't eff up again) until thursday
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Yup, a whole deptartment is on strike. They stated publicly that it won't affect their service, but of course it does :eyebrow:.
 
Coopah said:
Yup, a whole deptartment is on strike. They stated publicly that it won't affect their service, but of course it does :eyebrow:.
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The strike is still happening? I thought it was over. Friends hubby was on strike for over a month (not his decision) but he's been back at work for a few weeks now. I assumed that meant things were back to normal. Maybe I shouldn't be trying to switch to Verizon?
 
Coopah said:
Yup, a whole deptartment is on strike. They stated publicly that it won't affect their service, but of course it does :eyebrow:.
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I've never really been a Verizon customer but I thought I had heard that the strike was over as well? Our other option is COX which the one roomie had last year and said they have outages all the time which is less than ideal.
 
cowgirla said:
The strike is still happening? I thought it was over. Friends hubby was on strike for over a month (not his decision) but he's been back at work for a few weeks now. I assumed that meant things were back to normal. Maybe I shouldn't be trying to switch to Verizon?
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orca2011 said:
I've never really been a Verizon customer but I thought I had heard that the strike was over as well? Our other option is COX which the one roomie had last year and said they have outages all the time which is less than ideal.
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Ah ha I guess my information is outdated (not unusual) I tend to live under a rock. I hope everything gets better @orca2011 !
 
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