Hi everyone, I hope someone can help with some advice. I''ve just finished my third year in Bsc. Due to family issues (v. serious illnesses) and my own stupidity/ inability to know what I wanted to do in life/ complacent "oh I'm too rich and beautiful to work hard for a living" attitude/stupidity (did I mention that already?)/ and a career in writing that did not work out, my marks are not great. They're pathetic and very very sad. Anyway, so as I mentioned, just finished third year and I'm planning to stay in university for another 2 years. So that would make it five years from when I started that I graduate. I think I'll do a senior research project or something in my last (5th) year. I called a couple of medical schools who look at the last two years of undergrad GPA if the cumulative GPA is not v. good. I only have a chance at these two schools now. The reason I need advice is that I'm very depressed and I feel like a total, disastrous and miserable failure when I think that by the time I'm eligible to apply, my peers will be close to graduating. And I can't seem to study properly when I'm so miserable and depressed. I keep crying, can't sleep, can't eat etc. because I feel like I've let everyone down by not being a brilliant success. My parents friends all have children who are in medical school already, and I feel like I've let them down. In our culture education is so important. My mother is a doctor and I know that she feels upset that I haven't been able to make it yet. That's why I'm posting in this forum. How do you guys, other non-trads, pick yourselves up when you feel depressed? How do you deal with the uncertainty, the fear that you might never do what you want to do? I'm just so absolutely terrified that these next two years are my last chance ever, and even then it's so iffy. So please, if you have any advice to get over that gnawing fear, do tell. PS. PLEASE don't post if you're going to be rude or snarky or even somewhat blunt...I'm v. depressed already and don't need to be told off by strangers PS2 Also don't tell me to get over myself, I really can't you know; and I think it's perfectly acceptable for me to be so bothered over my own future.