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i'm having a rough time...i'm an M2 and i've been feeling like crap lately. i feel like i've more or less signed my life away to studying. i rarely go out and see my friends, which is a big change from last year.
for most of the beginning of the year i was pretty much okay with this, i knew most everyone goes through it and it was satisfying to be working so hard.
lately though, i've been feeling a lot more down. i feel like i'm working so hard but rarely beat the averages (my class has set the records for highest averages over the years--i have a pretty neurotic class and we are on an h/hp/p system). sometimes i even fail tests. i've never felt like this before, even having gone to a top ten undergrad. it's frustrating and makes me more and more insecure.
in fact, i feel like i'm more insecure than i've ever been, and it's starting to spill into my personal life. i know most people in my class dont have much of a life right now, but about 80-90% have serious significant others in their lives. i've always been a pretty independent girl, but now i'm starting to seriously worry about finding someone. these days i barely have time to sleep let alone date. i know i'm still relatively young at 23, but i know the next 7 or 8 years aren't going to be much less busy.
some days are better than others, and i want to believe things will get better next year but i know every year is hard and i dont want to delude myself. i feel lonely and sad much of the time, and there's little that i look forward to anymore.
anyway....just wondering if anyone is experiencing the same second year experiences...
for most of the beginning of the year i was pretty much okay with this, i knew most everyone goes through it and it was satisfying to be working so hard.
lately though, i've been feeling a lot more down. i feel like i'm working so hard but rarely beat the averages (my class has set the records for highest averages over the years--i have a pretty neurotic class and we are on an h/hp/p system). sometimes i even fail tests. i've never felt like this before, even having gone to a top ten undergrad. it's frustrating and makes me more and more insecure.
in fact, i feel like i'm more insecure than i've ever been, and it's starting to spill into my personal life. i know most people in my class dont have much of a life right now, but about 80-90% have serious significant others in their lives. i've always been a pretty independent girl, but now i'm starting to seriously worry about finding someone. these days i barely have time to sleep let alone date. i know i'm still relatively young at 23, but i know the next 7 or 8 years aren't going to be much less busy.
some days are better than others, and i want to believe things will get better next year but i know every year is hard and i dont want to delude myself. i feel lonely and sad much of the time, and there's little that i look forward to anymore.
anyway....just wondering if anyone is experiencing the same second year experiences...