Okay. I know I have posted here before, but this is my last time asking for advice and I really want the honest good bad and ugly. So my HPSP application has been submitted and my recruiter has told me to start looking into who I would want to do my commissioning so I am really trying to make my decision on whether I would accept the scholarship or not. I am interested in either EM or Peds(Though of course that is subject to change). I am a young black female if anybody can speak on the racial/sexual relations between milmed staff. No kids right now and never really planned to have any at a young age anyway. I always had an interest in the military but growing up with a part of my family that is religiously against serving I was kinda conditioned to think that military=front line war and dying(dramatic). I am actually excited with the idea of getting deployed even if that means I won't get to really do my specific job. I am really just open to opportunity and feel that life hands you s*** regardless and that I can make the best of it if I actually do it for the right reasons. So milmed physicians, HPSP students, anybody give me your input.