I've barely started and I already don't think I'm going to like it. So far it seems wayyy political and I always feel like I'm just starting a new job... Learning the environment, meeting people, making impressions, and you can't really do anything important or fun yet. It's like starting a new job, over and over, for a year. All the patients seem to act like they're doing you a favor for letting you in on their care...which I understand, but I don't enjoy it. And I'm definitely not comfortable with how subjective all the grading/evals are. That's been a lot more stressful to me than sitting around at home studying or podcasting lectures. Maybe I'm just noticing the negatives because I'm like 100% set on a particular specialty so I'm just there to kind of clock in and learn what I can. I don't know. Can't wait for it to be over though.
I'm also not really a morning person so that's been a big adjustment 😴