I just needed to let things out really quick about how I am feeling. I found out in August that I was pregnant, and although I was shcoked as it was unplanned, I fully embraced it. My boyfriend and I were so excited at the prospect of becoming parents, and then last thursday I had my big ultrasound at 18 weeks. Thats when things began to turn for the worst. After what seemed like an ultrasound that took forever, the doctor analyzed the pictures and said that I was pregnant with twins. He then said that he would schedule an appointment the next day with a specialist....I began to sense something was wrong. With the excitement over having twins, I didn't stop to think during the appointment that they never let me look at the ultrasound pictures at all, that I never even got to have one glance at the screen. That next day when I went to see the specialist, is when the bomb was dropped on me. I was told that my twins had an extremely rare birth defect....one that happens 1/48,000 cases of pregnancies. I was in total and utter shock. As he performed the ultrasound and showed me what was wrong with the babies, the tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. It was clear that these babies would never, ever have a normal life if born....if they even survived to birth. I just needed to get this off my chest...maybe it will make me stronger in the end, maybe more dedicated into trying to get into pharmacy school. I don't know, right now I feel so weak and depressed...I just hope it will pass. To those stressing about schools and grades, be thankful for your health and the health of the loved ones around you.