Wackie said:
I agree.
If good grades and med school are important enough for you, you'll buckle down and get things done.
You know, I used to get this crap all the time (and still do) and it makes me so mad. Ever since I can remember, I had huge issues with concentration, following directions, losing things, keeping track of time, and sitting still through class or a movie in the cinema. But because I was gifted and managed to pull A's, all my teachers used to tell my parents that I was spoiled, undisciplined and arrogant (sometimes right in front of me!) and that's why I lacked self-control. In high school, my symptoms got so bad that I started attending barely 50% of my classes, and would get up to leave several times in the middle of the ones I *did* attend.
I started using ritalin illegally, and told my psychiatrist, who wrote me a prescription for it. She told me I'd essentially been self-medicating, and there was no reason for me to feel guilty/kill myself to sit still or panic and stay up for days on end because it was hard for me to concentrate -- why should I limit my potential if there was a relatively safe drug out there that could help me so easily? Since then, I have been formally diagnosed with ADHD by a different psychologist, who was extremely pissed off that I was never helped/diagnosed by the many many many school officials who had complained about my behaviour since kindergarten.
And I'm sure I'm not the only one who's been overlooked like this. Self-medicating is extremely common...if you see that you're truly benefiting from the use of adderall, there's no reason why you shouldn't be allowed to go on it. The way my psych explained it to me, ADHD does not 'need' to be treated...it doesn't make you psychotic or suicidal or unable to leave the house. But there's also no reason why you should have to 'tough it out' without meds...it doesn't make you a better or a stronger person. It just makes you stubborn, like those girls who refuse to pop two advil when they get their period and prefer to take the day off school and curl up in the fetal position for 8+ hours. What's the goddamn
point?
I'm just so sick to death of being treated like a drug addict or being accused of manipulating my doctors into writing me prescriptions. I don't think taking stimulants would compromise my ability to be a good doctor, and frankly, as long as the drugs I'm taking aren't affecting my judgment, then I don't see why it's anybody's business whether or not I'm taking them.