Okay I do understand that, but you also have to understand that this isn't just some random expedition or some random vacation. No.
It's something that would genuinely make me happy, an experience that I really want to have in my life. It's hard to put into words the exact feeling.
Dude, I ****ing get it. I really, really do, and tried to show in my last post how much I feel that I've been in your shoes. And your feeling that you
need to do this may lead you to say "**** it, I'm doing this ****" regardless. That's your prerogative. But seriously, stop trying to get people on here to agree with you that it makes any sense. It just doesn't, from an objective perspective; subjectively, if you still feel it's worth risking your future, go for it. But I can basically guarantee you'll regret it come residency application season. And while others have stated you can do it during med school, if your gap your is teaching English, I'd be willing to bet my (large) med school loans that the vast majority of PDs are going to see it as you ****ing around for a year, not as meaningful service - if you want that, you can do what one of my classmates did and go build a hospital in the middle of nowhere in a third world country; that sort of thing could actually help you. But you can't take a gap year and have nothing to show for it, and you definitely can't take a gap year to do something nonmedical, and expect things to just work themselves out.
If you
have to do it, just go do it and damn the consequences. We're not going to agree with you that it's a good idea, so I'd stop trying to make us understand. Your answers sound immature; you come for advice as to if something is reasonable and when everyone says "NO!!!" your responses are basically "you don't get it. I
really want to." As incredulous as it may seem, many or most of us have been in your shoes at some point in our lives; we just either had the luxury of doing the impulsive thing when it didn't matter yet (premed) or shrugged it off and said, "you know, it can wait. I need to make sure my future is secure first. Any maybe I won't be able to do it all in the end, and that sucks, but you know what? That's life - I can't have my cake and eat it too, and sometimes I have to make hard choices." PDs are going to see this just as we do, as poor judgment and an indication that on a whim you may well throw away what others spend blood, sweat, and tears working for just to (in many cases) never get the opportunities you've had. Why would they risk you deciding mid-PGY1 that you don't love the 80-h work weeks and dropping out to go teach English for the rest of your life? It's going to look like you're not committed to medicine, immature, and a flake. They have thousands of other candidates knocking on the door without those red flags.
Sorry to be harsh. I've tried to tell you gently, because I do empathize, and I've been there. But you're still not hearing us, and it does concern me and make me worry about your maturity if you still are fine with risking throwing away your career for this. And before you **** yourself over, I want you to hear the real talk we're trying to give you: you are ****ing yourself over and will very likely regret this if you do it. Now stop trying to find validation on a website and go do some soul-searching as to if this is really still worth it.