SNS, I have to say that your claims sound pretty dubious. However, assuming for one moment that I believe everything you claim to be, I can understand why, for all that you've been through to get where you are, you are unabashedly proud of your accomplishments and rightly so. But anyone can see, you need a lot of work. I've got news for you: Your accomplishments thus far probably make up only 30 or 40% of your person. Why don't you take all that energy, determination, perfectionism and intelligence(which hopefully includes insightfulness) and make a good, decent human being out of the rest of you.
Good Luck.