The school is so far away from my home and family
I’m extremely close my Grandpa and he recently has had health complications, which has also left me having a difficult time.
On one hand, I would say a ton of students go through this level of anxiety in regards to home sickness because just about half of vet students are out of state. How bad that home sickness is varies student by student. I was 1000 miles away from all family and friends initially. I also didn't bond well with my original classmates (repeated first year). So it can be tough.
Likewise, my younger sister died while I was in second year, and being far away from those with health problems and potentially loss is really hard. I missed 2.5 weeks of class and it was very difficult to manage all of that so far from home. So this is definitely a valid concern. If you eventually commit to going to this school, having a plan in place now will help a lot with the home sickness and anxiety.
much more expensive than my in state
This is my big thing. The ROI for vet school/vet med is financially not worth the heavily expensive schools. My limit was 300k, but that limit is going to change person to person. The school you are considering (since we all know what school we're all talking about here) is the 34th most expensive school for an OOS student. Even with it being more expensive than your IS, its also more expensive than a lot of other schools (if you include accredited international schools). VIN puts this school at 355k with interest accrual, which would have bumped them from my list automatically.
It also is new, not fully accredited yet, has no teaching hospital, and goes year round.
I may be interested in specializing as well and dont know how this school would look when applying for residencies.
So the school not being accredited yet most likely will not matter depending on what happens with the next graduating class and how the school fixes it's COE deficiencies. This is the first school to not gain its full accreditation with the AVMA following graduating its first class, though, which is an interesting development. That's really the only hesitancy I have here; if this school continues to fail its accreditation stuff, then that may influence what happens to students (though they would still graduate as fully accredited veterinarians regardless cause the AVMA does understand that the students are not necessarily at fault for the school failing).
There is zero reason for a school that does not have a teaching hospital to cost more than those that do. That's more of a principle stance than a functional one since nearly all the new schools that have opened don't have one; but it's something I stand by.
Year round is up in the air for me, though something I lean away from due to how vet med education is structured. Human med schools are structured year round with some/minimal effect on the students. But their educational expectations are also set up for year round schooling; they also get two years of clinics vs one at the vast majority of vet schools.
Overall, the new schools have not been struggling getting people into specialties. For one thing, most students could get an internship, where you would make up for the fact you might not have a specialist at your school in regards to your hopeful future job. However, it's hard to say how *this school* will be perceived if it continues to struggle.
but I also feel like I shouldnt be dreadful about it. I just wish I had gotten in anywhere else, but I havent.
You need to evaluate why you truly deep down feel dreadful. It's not the distance; because of where this school is located, there are likely schools farther from your home town is. So the homesickness and family anxiety aren't the true reason; or else you wouldn't want to go to *any* school outside a certain radius from your home town. Is it the newness? Is it the struggles this particular school is going through? Those are relatively unique to this school. The cost is not unique to this school; while I think 355k for this school is ridiculous, its on par with many others.
You overall have a lot of soul searching to do between now and matriculation. Keep in mind that declining this acceptance very well may mean never becoming a veterinarian. You have to be okay with this and, more importantly, have a back up plan if you are.