the problem is that as an international i am not eliglble for alot of scholarships and grants. the only realistic option for me is to get a cosigner and the people i know are unwilling or unable to do it. most of the people i know are not rich, or do not have good credit. i actually have excellent credit, and so do my parents, but the banks dont care. they pretty much want a guarantee that my parents income alone will be able to cover it. they sayd they've been burned by canadians who have gone abroad and decide they dont need to pay their loans, so their not being trusting. the bottom line is they want a cosigner with alot of personal income or some heavy collatoral. (it is 150K). i am in the process of applying to scholarships and writing letters basically begging strangers to help out, but im not going to count on any of that. i am hoping at working for the best, but i have to understand that the world isnt going to bend over for me. it is what it is, and just because i am in NEED of money doesnt mean i will get it. i have approached my chruch, and 3 other churches in fact and they are reluctant to do it. i have 2 realistic options for cosigners. one is my mentor (a cardiac EP) who i havnt approached yet (due to the fact that he has alrady done so much for me). i will approach him as a last resort. if he refuses or cant do it, then im pretty much cooked. the other possible last resort is my aunt and uncle. they have a house, but their credit sucks major. so i dont know how the bank will look at that. i remain moderatley optimistic, and ive gotten started on the process early. is till have a couple months (like 7 or so), and i really wont know for sure where i stand financialy till mid april, so in a way im just treading water aimlessly right now, but im looking at backup options like the carribean in the meantime in case things dont work out. in either case, thanks for the immensely encouraging words, and thanks for listening to my rant, lol. i havnt given up yet. i understand that failure is an option that only i can choose! lets see how the next couple months work out!