Yolo my friend, I am confident your application will afford you at least a couple interview invites, that is, of course, assuming you apply BROADLY. Now, standard interview protocol dictates the interviewee do their best to be themselves, to showcase their unique personality. I think you, I , and everyone else familiar with Yolo would agree this does not apply in your case. You need to find a way to be less like you, and more like a normal, calm, not paranoid, not frantic, less awkward person with at least short glimpses of potential to be a functioning member of society. If your ability to adapt a false personality for interviewing purposes in any way reflects your ability to remain anonymous when starting a new SDN profile after being banned, you may want to think about dental hygiene. But I believe you can do it. Good luck big guy.