THam1193
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Hello I have been looking at this forum for a few years but never made an account. This is my first post. This is going to sound like my life story, but I'd like to give an idea of who I am.
So, this might be a long post...so I apologize.
All of my life I have wanted to go into some sort of medical field career. My goal since I was a kid was to be a doctor, not sure what kind, but some sort of specialist is what I'm thinking if I can.
A little background on my academic history, in high school I struggled to graduate, I didn't like going to school and I had balance issues so I missed almost two years of high school, I made it all up my senior year. I did graduate but I felt that was a simple life necessity. I held off going to college for a few years because I wasn't sure what I wanted to do at this point. I still wanted to be a doctor, but I wanted to work to save some money and play video games more. A few years after high school I started college at a local university that lets everyone in and did really really well, I didn't work very hard though, it just came easily. I spent the next few semesters with GPA in the 3.75-4.0 each time. I finished my associate degree with a 3.73 GPA. Over the years I continued to go to school on and off, but I also now have W's and some worse grades. I just felt like the dream of going to med school was just too much of a longshot and couldn't decide what I wanted to be, so I got lazy. It was back to working for a little more than minimum wage and playing video games being a hermit.
Now over these years, a lot of issues arrose with my mental health. I was really depressed and struggled a lot because of this at school, I just felt like I'd never amount to anything. So I continued to fart around at school and play my video games and just struggle to get by. Had several trips to a Psych unit and really just felt lost.
Fast forward to two years ago, I thought I'd enroll in some classes again and try to finish grinding out my bachelor's, in what? I don't know at this point. I did a semester of anatomy and a couple other classes nothing too serious. But I worked my butt off in anatomy, and I loved it, it was my favorite class I have taken and I found it so interesting, I studied really hard and got an A in it. At this point finances became an issue, and had to stop school again. I was beginning to feel like I'd never be able to get school done. So I went back to working a bit and just not doing much socially, barely making it by and basically mooching off my family and mom to survive. Anyway, at this point my mom began having health issues, long story short this got really bad really quick around Christmas last year and she ended up passing away. So I thought I'd move out to Ohio to be with my dad and work there and see what I could do with myself. We started making arrangements to move out there and see where it went. My dad left from the funeral with us having the plan to have me move out there. Unfortunately life can kind of kick you while you are down, my father contracted post COVID pneumonia and ended up also passing three weeks after my mom.
At this point my back is against the wall, I have nowhere to hide from life anymore, no one to help me every month with rent and living. I have to apply myself. So until about October I did some IT work for a friend of mine's work. It was ok but the desire to go into something in the medical field was all I wanted to do. So in October I started a job as a processor for a lab, they are willing to cover my bachelor's in full if I go into MLS. This is why I took the job, MLS seems like a perfect fit for me, I love science and the human body and I love the idea of helping people. MLS also is great at preparing someone for medical school, and that was what I always wanted to be. I could study something I like and work for the lab while I study. An opprotunity to have school paid for in full in something you like is amazing. So as of now my plan is to go back in January for MLS and pursue it. It's something I'm passionate about and will have to work hard at, but I have a feeling I never met my acadmic potential and I have a desire to be something that helps people.
But, I have my doubts on if this is for me or not. I have done little chemistry, zero physics, and no physiology yet. But I did really well in everything else and I think I can do really well if I apply myself, I didn't work very hard if I'm being completely honest in my best semesters except the one I took anatomy. Also, I start to feel like I'm too old. I'm going to be 30, I have no career yet, I feel someone my age should be close to figuring it out. My doubts tell me I wouldn't be smart enough, no one would respect someone like me as a doctor, that I'd fail out of med school or never get in. Would patients be concerned by how I look? I have tattoos and am a bit overweight, would any patient respect someone like this' opinion?
I guess the TL;DR is, is it too late for me? Can I still get in to med school? Can I still reach my dream of being a Psychiatrist, Anesthesiologist, Oncologist, or whatever I wanted to be? Am I too much of an underachiever that can't apply himself?
So, this might be a long post...so I apologize.
All of my life I have wanted to go into some sort of medical field career. My goal since I was a kid was to be a doctor, not sure what kind, but some sort of specialist is what I'm thinking if I can.
A little background on my academic history, in high school I struggled to graduate, I didn't like going to school and I had balance issues so I missed almost two years of high school, I made it all up my senior year. I did graduate but I felt that was a simple life necessity. I held off going to college for a few years because I wasn't sure what I wanted to do at this point. I still wanted to be a doctor, but I wanted to work to save some money and play video games more. A few years after high school I started college at a local university that lets everyone in and did really really well, I didn't work very hard though, it just came easily. I spent the next few semesters with GPA in the 3.75-4.0 each time. I finished my associate degree with a 3.73 GPA. Over the years I continued to go to school on and off, but I also now have W's and some worse grades. I just felt like the dream of going to med school was just too much of a longshot and couldn't decide what I wanted to be, so I got lazy. It was back to working for a little more than minimum wage and playing video games being a hermit.
Now over these years, a lot of issues arrose with my mental health. I was really depressed and struggled a lot because of this at school, I just felt like I'd never amount to anything. So I continued to fart around at school and play my video games and just struggle to get by. Had several trips to a Psych unit and really just felt lost.
Fast forward to two years ago, I thought I'd enroll in some classes again and try to finish grinding out my bachelor's, in what? I don't know at this point. I did a semester of anatomy and a couple other classes nothing too serious. But I worked my butt off in anatomy, and I loved it, it was my favorite class I have taken and I found it so interesting, I studied really hard and got an A in it. At this point finances became an issue, and had to stop school again. I was beginning to feel like I'd never be able to get school done. So I went back to working a bit and just not doing much socially, barely making it by and basically mooching off my family and mom to survive. Anyway, at this point my mom began having health issues, long story short this got really bad really quick around Christmas last year and she ended up passing away. So I thought I'd move out to Ohio to be with my dad and work there and see what I could do with myself. We started making arrangements to move out there and see where it went. My dad left from the funeral with us having the plan to have me move out there. Unfortunately life can kind of kick you while you are down, my father contracted post COVID pneumonia and ended up also passing three weeks after my mom.
At this point my back is against the wall, I have nowhere to hide from life anymore, no one to help me every month with rent and living. I have to apply myself. So until about October I did some IT work for a friend of mine's work. It was ok but the desire to go into something in the medical field was all I wanted to do. So in October I started a job as a processor for a lab, they are willing to cover my bachelor's in full if I go into MLS. This is why I took the job, MLS seems like a perfect fit for me, I love science and the human body and I love the idea of helping people. MLS also is great at preparing someone for medical school, and that was what I always wanted to be. I could study something I like and work for the lab while I study. An opprotunity to have school paid for in full in something you like is amazing. So as of now my plan is to go back in January for MLS and pursue it. It's something I'm passionate about and will have to work hard at, but I have a feeling I never met my acadmic potential and I have a desire to be something that helps people.
But, I have my doubts on if this is for me or not. I have done little chemistry, zero physics, and no physiology yet. But I did really well in everything else and I think I can do really well if I apply myself, I didn't work very hard if I'm being completely honest in my best semesters except the one I took anatomy. Also, I start to feel like I'm too old. I'm going to be 30, I have no career yet, I feel someone my age should be close to figuring it out. My doubts tell me I wouldn't be smart enough, no one would respect someone like me as a doctor, that I'd fail out of med school or never get in. Would patients be concerned by how I look? I have tattoos and am a bit overweight, would any patient respect someone like this' opinion?
I guess the TL;DR is, is it too late for me? Can I still get in to med school? Can I still reach my dream of being a Psychiatrist, Anesthesiologist, Oncologist, or whatever I wanted to be? Am I too much of an underachiever that can't apply himself?
