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I'm starting my M2 year and have been in a long distance relationship for about a year now with another med student, now an M3.
I basically wanted to ask you folks for your perspectives on whether or not there is anything substantial enough in the relationship that is worth pursuing.
When we visit each other, about every 2 weeks, or talk daily on the phone, I feel that we're in own little world, which is good and bad. Good for the obvious reasons, to get away from it all, etc etc. But bad because I feel that she is a completely different person from the way she is around her friends. For example, she has a very intense and energetic personality, like a bomb ready to explode. I've seen this in her when we're hanging out with friends.
But when it's just the 2 of us she really tones that down around me because she knows how sensitive I can get. If I say something stupid she is extra patient with me, for example. The problem with this is: I feel like 1) she's not really being herself around me, and that I am missing out on the side of her she would otherwise share with me if I wasn't so sensitiive, and 2) that once we get more used to each other and the honeymooning phase (LDR from the getgo) wears off, that she'll drop the "toning down" and I won't feel comfortable/appreciate her for how she "really is".
She is very emotionally needy and has significant fears that I'd leave her. So that plays a big part into her behavior I'm sure.
She has been emotionally supportive to me, but I've felt for a while that it's been more out of her need than her own care for me. She loves me but I feel as though it is mostly because I make her feel loved...that she doesn't appreciate me as much as someone should if they truly "loved someone." I'm ok with her not loving me, but I'm not ok with her loving me mostly out of need.
And we have taken time off from each other, without knowing if we'd get back together again, and now we're not sure what we are, but she's set on being with me if I want to be with her. I can think of easier relationships than this -- no long distance, less needy a partner, maybe a non med student who still understands med school's demands....
With M2 and boards coming up, and limited time and energy for relationships, I'm inclined to think that there isn't enough solid ground for our relationship, and that if I had to choose now I would call it off formally. But I'm here posting this because I still have feelings for her and a gut feeling that she is worth it...and more importantly, that if I get a little more thicker skinned, I might appreciate and even love her for her "true side".
please, any words of wisdom? thanks,
I basically wanted to ask you folks for your perspectives on whether or not there is anything substantial enough in the relationship that is worth pursuing.
When we visit each other, about every 2 weeks, or talk daily on the phone, I feel that we're in own little world, which is good and bad. Good for the obvious reasons, to get away from it all, etc etc. But bad because I feel that she is a completely different person from the way she is around her friends. For example, she has a very intense and energetic personality, like a bomb ready to explode. I've seen this in her when we're hanging out with friends.
But when it's just the 2 of us she really tones that down around me because she knows how sensitive I can get. If I say something stupid she is extra patient with me, for example. The problem with this is: I feel like 1) she's not really being herself around me, and that I am missing out on the side of her she would otherwise share with me if I wasn't so sensitiive, and 2) that once we get more used to each other and the honeymooning phase (LDR from the getgo) wears off, that she'll drop the "toning down" and I won't feel comfortable/appreciate her for how she "really is".
She is very emotionally needy and has significant fears that I'd leave her. So that plays a big part into her behavior I'm sure.
She has been emotionally supportive to me, but I've felt for a while that it's been more out of her need than her own care for me. She loves me but I feel as though it is mostly because I make her feel loved...that she doesn't appreciate me as much as someone should if they truly "loved someone." I'm ok with her not loving me, but I'm not ok with her loving me mostly out of need.
And we have taken time off from each other, without knowing if we'd get back together again, and now we're not sure what we are, but she's set on being with me if I want to be with her. I can think of easier relationships than this -- no long distance, less needy a partner, maybe a non med student who still understands med school's demands....
With M2 and boards coming up, and limited time and energy for relationships, I'm inclined to think that there isn't enough solid ground for our relationship, and that if I had to choose now I would call it off formally. But I'm here posting this because I still have feelings for her and a gut feeling that she is worth it...and more importantly, that if I get a little more thicker skinned, I might appreciate and even love her for her "true side".
please, any words of wisdom? thanks,