I got written up at work this week.
(I work as an assistant at an SA clinic.) I don't want to go into detail both for privacy reasons and because I'm embarrassed, but long story short I tried to do too many things at once, and made a mistake that compromised a dog's health. I feel terrible about it, and I apologized profusely and had to go take a moment to cry after it happened (there were more dogs that needed walked, luckily, so I had an excuse to go outside), but the thing is no one had told me the extent of this dog's health issues, and I would have been much more careful with her if I'd known.
I've been working at this clinic for about 3.5 months now, so I've gotten used to the routine a lot more than when I first started. However, I'm not trying to blame anyone else for my mistake, but it seems like a lot of my recent mistakes are because things get lost in communication and I don't know what's expected of me. For example, no one tells me what's going on with certain hospitalized patients, and then I don't know how often to check on them or what to look for, and then I get chewed out because something got missed that shouldn't have. This one tech in particular seems to dislike me. I do everything she asks me to, I listen when she gives me instructions or corrections, and I try to apply those corrections and not make the same mistakes twice, but she still always seems annoyed with me. I don't know if I need to ask more questions so I know what's expected of me, or what.
It's especially disheartening because I worked at a different clinic before this one, and they loved me and trusted me to do a lot of things there. It was a smaller clinic, and I was the only college-age employee there, but I feel like I fit in a lot better there than at my current job. They only needed me during summers there, and I need a year-round job, so I can't go back, but I don't know if I'm struggling here because of clashing personalities/mindsets, or if this is a sign that I'm not cut out for vet med. :/ We have had quite a bit of employee turnover recently at this clinic, including a new vet, so I wonder if my training just wasn't as thorough as it should have been. I'm just scared because if another major incident like this week happens, I'll get fired, and I really need this job not just for the pay, but for the experience, and because I'm hoping to get an eLOR from one of the vets there within the next couple months.
Sorry for the long post, but well, this is the rant thread. I'm trying to just buckle down and apply myself and not let fear or a lack of confidence get the best of me, but any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.