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Hello SDN,
I usually don't turn to the webs for support/advice but at the moment I feel a little isolated from those who can relate to what I'm feeling. This is my first year at a four year institution and my junior year overall. I'm a bit of a nontraditional and spent my first two years at an extension college so that I could nail it and actually get into a decent university (my high school transcripts were unimpressive to say the least). During my first semester in undergrad I decided to pursue biomedical engineering and I've never regretted that. Especially now that I'm in the design curriculum and getting to work on some really interesting projects.
What I've been really concerned with lately, however, is the amount of work required of me to remain a competitive applicant. 18 credit semesters were a bit busy during Fr and So years but definitely doable, even with commuting. But here comes Jr year and all of a sudden a 15 credit semester takes up ALL of my time. Consistent late weeknights just to keep up and weekends at the library for 20 or more hours are the standard.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love school, and the classes I get to take will always fascinate me. And it's exactly for this reason that I really don't mind putting in so much work. Sure I still have my lows full of loneliness and self pity - and there are definitely times I think how nice it might be to see some friends or just take a walk. But it's pretty easy to not let that stuff bother me when I think about how exciting it will be to get that acceptance letter. Lately, of all the positive thoughts that keep me going, even that one comes with the sting of a cold realization. If I can barely keep up in undergrad how will I ever make it in med school? I've heard the stories, the ones about people who flew through undergrad with minimal effort but after getting into medical school spend their entire waking hours studying. If I'm already studying nonstop in undergrad, where will the extra time required for the academic rigors of medical school come from?
Again, I'm ok with the whole no life thing, but I want to actually be successful if I get into med school. I don't want to be an ok doctor, I want to be a great doctor. Maybe I'm not cut out for medical school. Maybe I'm just a whiney lump. And I'm really not sure what I'm looking for by posting this. Support? A cold slap of truth? To vent some of my thoughts...
Anyway, If anyone has input or is experiencing something similar, I'd be glad to hear it. Now, time to get back to studying.
I usually don't turn to the webs for support/advice but at the moment I feel a little isolated from those who can relate to what I'm feeling. This is my first year at a four year institution and my junior year overall. I'm a bit of a nontraditional and spent my first two years at an extension college so that I could nail it and actually get into a decent university (my high school transcripts were unimpressive to say the least). During my first semester in undergrad I decided to pursue biomedical engineering and I've never regretted that. Especially now that I'm in the design curriculum and getting to work on some really interesting projects.
What I've been really concerned with lately, however, is the amount of work required of me to remain a competitive applicant. 18 credit semesters were a bit busy during Fr and So years but definitely doable, even with commuting. But here comes Jr year and all of a sudden a 15 credit semester takes up ALL of my time. Consistent late weeknights just to keep up and weekends at the library for 20 or more hours are the standard.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love school, and the classes I get to take will always fascinate me. And it's exactly for this reason that I really don't mind putting in so much work. Sure I still have my lows full of loneliness and self pity - and there are definitely times I think how nice it might be to see some friends or just take a walk. But it's pretty easy to not let that stuff bother me when I think about how exciting it will be to get that acceptance letter. Lately, of all the positive thoughts that keep me going, even that one comes with the sting of a cold realization. If I can barely keep up in undergrad how will I ever make it in med school? I've heard the stories, the ones about people who flew through undergrad with minimal effort but after getting into medical school spend their entire waking hours studying. If I'm already studying nonstop in undergrad, where will the extra time required for the academic rigors of medical school come from?
Again, I'm ok with the whole no life thing, but I want to actually be successful if I get into med school. I don't want to be an ok doctor, I want to be a great doctor. Maybe I'm not cut out for medical school. Maybe I'm just a whiney lump. And I'm really not sure what I'm looking for by posting this. Support? A cold slap of truth? To vent some of my thoughts...
Anyway, If anyone has input or is experiencing something similar, I'd be glad to hear it. Now, time to get back to studying.