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My how the tides have changed. Last year I was a wide eyed attractive confident personable, adorable APPE student kicking but and working hard to get a residency. Why does everyone give advice on getting residency but no one actually talks about how difficult residency really is. I'm currently at an extremely prestigious institution, around really smart people, and struggling to have any kind of voice. As soon as I walk into the hospital I become a shell of myself. Riddled with insecurity, afraid of answering a question wrong, but also being aware that eyes are always on me. They've yet to see me for who I really am (I haven't really felt comfortable too). I'm about to finish my second rotation and to be honest...I've been struggling. I was prepared for the clinical rigor associated with residency...but I wasn't prepared to feel so insecure. I feel like my co-residents are breezing through and I'm having issues remembering my name. And I had a few hiccups in the beginning of residency that just shot my confidence. What can I do to just, not be so in my head. I actually have a good team of people around me who I feel want the best for me but I'm having a hard time connecting. So....bro I need advice from real people. Not like I always had my ish together and I was perfect from day one people but people like I sucked at first then kicked but later and this is how I did it. ADVICE NEEDED/WANTED/HELP A SIS OUT