I've posted a couple of other times and each post was basically the same in that it dealt with my lack of ability to not have a major panic attack with all of this "getting into med school" stuff (I was the one who wrote in about laminating my notes so I can study and shower at the same time). I really appreciated all of the posts that I got and suggestions on destressing. But now I'm reading through the messages and seeing that some of you have gotten back great MCAT scores, and some of you have been accepted to schools already, and that uneasy feeling is setting in again. A few years back, I developed an eating disorder. Every aspect of my like suffered, including my academic career. I went into recovery and rebounded. My grades have gone back up. If these schools were looking at my record, they would see that I have shown an extensive interest in medicine (I even went to a Medical Academy high school and did rotations in the ER, Radiology Dept, and PT dept). I'm taking my MCAT in April and if all of my studying pays off, I'll do well on that. But I'm so worried that the schools will look at my GPA and say "Did you seriously think that we were going to let you in?." My perfectionist dad has pretty much told me that I'm living in a dream world and because I screwed up 2 semesters of school, I'm wasting my time even thinking that I'm going to get in to Med school. Medicine is the only thing that I've wanted to do for my entire life. When I was doing those rotations in high school and actually got to do CPR and work with a team of doctors and nurses, I remember thinking "oh my god, I belong here." And now I just feel like I'm sinking and being a doctor is out of reach. Do you think that with an upward trend in my grades, a stellar MCAT score, and an obvious display of interest in medicine will be enough OR should I start thinking about my essay for clown college?