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You know what? When I take time to think about how stupid I was when I was younger, I want to beat myself in the head. Not just because of losing my civil rights and having a permanent stain on my record, but because I can't even fathom what my thought process or state of mind was to do what I did. It's just not me. The person I know as myself goes out of his way to help people in every way possible. I don't compromise my integrity for anything. I'm honest to a fault. I remember what it was like to have nightmares every singly night when I was 16-19 years old because of the life I was living, and I don't ever want to go back to that. If a cashier puts 4 cents in the register for me so that she doesn't have to give me back 96 cents, it bothers me until I make a point to go back and straighten it out.
The good thing is that I try to keep myself so busy with positive growth that it helps me not beat myself up all the time, but it does hurt when I think about what I did.
Hopefully people will not only look at where I came from, but also how far I've come along.
The good thing is that I try to keep myself so busy with positive growth that it helps me not beat myself up all the time, but it does hurt when I think about what I did.
Hopefully people will not only look at where I came from, but also how far I've come along.