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I want to keep this vague enough to conceal my identity. I'd like to give more info but my history is unique and would give me away. Don't wanna get committed.
I had started my residency in a new field after a gap in my training. I knew it would be tough to catch up with general clinical stuff. I finally was gaining traction, but enough people of power decided I was behind and got put under microscope 3 months in. Didn't even make it a full month into probation before getting canned. A lot of my co-residents and staff have been surprised to hear the news and asked why? Yes I was behind my peers, but not a lost cause. I'm trying to not take it personally. But without help to just get in to re-do a pgy1 year, I don't think any program would risk me. In the past I applied to primary care via ERAS but never got a nibble outside of rads, surgery or anesthesia.
I don't see any hope of getting to ever practice medicine. Yes, I can use my MD to earn a living but I'll always regret not being able to just provide primary care. Nothing fancy, I just want to be a real doctor after all this work. Withholding detail, I feel very prematurely shoved out of my program. How do I go on? I'm not hurting myself only because of my family. Plus I don't want to re-incarnate on this sh*tty planet again.
Going to the gym to blow off this energy building up inside me. This post isn't really for advice, but I need an outlet. I need help and hope.
I had started my residency in a new field after a gap in my training. I knew it would be tough to catch up with general clinical stuff. I finally was gaining traction, but enough people of power decided I was behind and got put under microscope 3 months in. Didn't even make it a full month into probation before getting canned. A lot of my co-residents and staff have been surprised to hear the news and asked why? Yes I was behind my peers, but not a lost cause. I'm trying to not take it personally. But without help to just get in to re-do a pgy1 year, I don't think any program would risk me. In the past I applied to primary care via ERAS but never got a nibble outside of rads, surgery or anesthesia.
I don't see any hope of getting to ever practice medicine. Yes, I can use my MD to earn a living but I'll always regret not being able to just provide primary care. Nothing fancy, I just want to be a real doctor after all this work. Withholding detail, I feel very prematurely shoved out of my program. How do I go on? I'm not hurting myself only because of my family. Plus I don't want to re-incarnate on this sh*tty planet again.
Going to the gym to blow off this energy building up inside me. This post isn't really for advice, but I need an outlet. I need help and hope.