I have been doing it for a long time. every time i go, i hate it. i dont know why. i think its because i dont understand whats going on, i am confused. not by like medical terms, but like the doc and the patient talk about something and i dont understand it. Or they tell each other a funny joke and i dont understand it.
I like medical care. but to me, this is how it should be: patient comes in, talks about her problem, here is your prescription, goodbye. The doctor that I shadow just talks and talks about their personal lives, where did you go? oh, you took that freeway? its usually very difficult to go from that freeway, why didnt you take this other freeway? Oh you are going to your grandson's birthday? how old is he?
[a joke] [laughter] I have no idea what just happened. Not becuase i have a language problem, but because I dont care so I get ADD when i am in there, i cant pay attention. I dont care if your wife went to so and so freeway blah blah. So yeah, thats why i hate shadowing.
but then when a couple of days pass, i miss it and want to go back. but then when i go back all these feelings start again.