ThStep 1: get some help, quickly. You can still climb out of this hole but you need to actively seek guidance and assistance.
Step 2: realize that the average age for a 1st year student in medical school is 24, aka, even if you matriculate when you are 27, you are still only 3 years older than average.
Step 3: I would recommend taking a hiatus. Find a job in healthcare that you enjoy and work full time for a couple of years. In that time, your mcat would've expired and then you can start fresh with a retake.
Reasons for a hiatus in order of importance: you need help, you can enjoy life and find yourself again, a break from the entire process will allow you to start fresh with a new mcat and new perspective.
Alternatively, scrap medical school and look into other options. If you truly want medicine, you are years away in my opinion, given the state of your well being along with that old 18 with a 2 in VR. Not sure how forgiving schools would be even if you scored well above your first score. A 2 in any section sends off alarms, particularly if you don't have a solid reason for it.
Oh and definitely do not apply this cycle. Take your time OP, don't rush this process. I sense there is some external pressure for you to do well along with some expectations for yourself that you didn't meet. Understand that life happens, and you need a support system at this point. The rest of your application looks solid, but you need a break from even thinking about medical school. Take care of yourself first.
If you haven't realized by now, changing to private 30 seconds ago doesn't do a thing. I look forward to your next posts.Hello everyone,
Before Starting, I apologize for the long thread in advance. I am destroyed guys so please don't be too harsh. I have to let it out and I hope I can seek some help from this forum.
I am not the typical undergraduate who face some struggles in life and gets over them. I feel like my life is over as I haven't been doing anything to improve my case in the past year. I graduated with my chemistry degree this past may with a 3.75 GPA, I know, its not too high. I am a first generation student who passed through many obstacles during my undergraduate journey. I moved to the US 5 years ago and started college ( I'm a US citizen btw). When I first started college I was the motivated, full of energy student who tried to push my limits at every task I do. Even though I was in a new culture and environment, I was was able to engage myself in everything a medical school look for in an applicant. I developed my leadership skills, joined a research lab, joined several clubs, volunteered in medical and non medical events (400+ hours). On the top of that I was able to maintain a 4.0 until my junior year. I received several scholarships and awards, was assigned as a lead teacher assistant and advanced in my extracurricular. Even though English was not my first language, I never had a problem in my English classes ( received As in ENGL1&2 and american literature). All was going great until I took my MCAT in December 2014. When I first saw my score I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I received a score that I never received on a practice test. I received 18 ( 8BS, 2V yes its a 2, and 8PS). My verbal score just shattered me into pieces. How is a 2 even possible ( its a 2%). I asked for re-scoring and it didn't change. A 2 is not even a score for a 3rd language speaker.
I have never failed at something in my life and what happened next is even worse than a 2 on VR. After receiving my score I didn't have the courage or motivation to retake the test. I thought that I would postpone it for the summer of 2015 to retake it. By the time everyone was working hard to retake their test in the spring of 2015, I was depressed and started to drink and party all semester long ( I dropped two classes). The summer of 2015 came and I didn't want to apply with a 2 VR. I felt as a big failure during that time ( which I was and still) because I was 22 years old and didn't start medical school yet or even applied.
I tried to get back on track and set a goal but something unexpected happened ( btw I'm not trying to give excuses for my failure). I met a girl on campus and fell in love with her. I never loved a girl like her before so I wasted my whole year with her and don't forget the partying and drinking aspect. As a result of that, I received my first C ever in Biochem1 and dropped Biochem2 in the spring of 2016. I graduated with an honor but I think that I was the only student who was depressed, felt like a loser and wasm't happy during the ceremony. After all the hard work I did up until 2015, I became the biggest loser of premeds at age of 23, I didn't retake my MCAT, brokeup with my girlfriend , ended up with three Ws and here I am today reminiscing my past.
Becoming a physician is my dream. I have worked so hard for it and I tossed it all in the trash because of a 2 VR. I don't know if I have any chance to jump back and become the person I was two years ago. I miss being the energized, motivated and bright person I was in 2014. My friend is telling me to apply this cycle with my stats. What do you guys think? Should I give it a shot? I know that there is no way I get an interview with my stats. I feel that I too old and that the train has passed me already. I am 23 and I will be 24 next year and not even in medical school. Every premed I know got somewhere or at least is in the interview process right now. I don't feel like facing my successful friends anymore. They all got somewhere even though I was the one who tutored them for ochem and physics. Some of them graduated medical school already. I don't feel like talking to my parents because I have no accomplishments so far. I am a mess.. a big 23 year old loser.
I apologize for the long thread guys, please don't be harsh, I am already destroyed. I have no one to talk to about my situation at this point and this is my last resort. Any advice is appreciated.
Nicely done. Keep up the good work in slamming the trollsYawn.
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Biology or Chemistry? Confused I am.
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Impressive you jumped 2 years in age in the course of 1 year.
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I take it your the male persona of the troll with 8 accounts?
Might as well ban around half the users who post threads in pre-med while they are at it. The sad part is that automatic IP filtering comes as a feature for most forum platforms I'm aware of e.g. VBulletin/Xenforo. Just came to the conclusion that if a site is not using it, then you have to live with it.Can we get a mod to do an IP ban on this turd?
This whole thing has made me skeptical of anyone with an account from 2013/14 and no avatar. You could just be OP for all I know. Trust no one.Might as well ban around half the users who post threads in pre-med while they are at it. The sad part is that automatic IP filtering comes as a feature for most forum platforms I'm aware of e.g. VBulletin/Xenforo. Just came to the conclusion that if a site is not using it, then you have to live with it.
I had adorable animal avatars up until this past week. I'd also be more than happy to prove to an adcom of my personal failure within a Caribbean medical school program if you truly doubt that I'm as insignificant as I say that I am.This whole thing has made me skeptical of anyone with an account from 2013/14 and no avatar. You could just be OP for all I know. Trust no one.
I looked for someone pathetic, and OP and their numerous personas always came up. By the way, kudos on the other variations you are using, the shift is impressive. Please continue to spend the time to build those posts up, accounts with less posts simply feels less special.how did you even find that many!?