Perpetually dissatisfied. You need to let go of money and a certain lifestyle. Spend less and become content with little. I don’t often agree with
@emergentmd, but I do agree with their ability to define happiness. There can be a lot after EM, but you pigeon hole yourself when you define something after EM as something after EM with money. I’m not saying money isn’t important, but it clearly seems to be to you. You may not like that idea, but I say that out of love from an anonymous internet stranger. There’s lots in this world. You can make lots of money in EM. If you don’t want to do that anymore that’s totally understandable. You can ask lots of questions and make lots of posts, but ultimately you need to personally grapple with what money means in your life. You’re not alone.