I'm a bit nervous saying this but here it goes guys....I can honestly say after doing all my 3rd year rotations that I hate everything. Granted I'm only an M3 and this is not what a real doctor does, blah, blah, blah....but I sincerely don't enjoy medicine. However, I did do a 2wk anethesia rotation, didn't particularly fall in love with it, but was able to see myself tolerating it. Now, I know some of you may say, "Why the hell are you in med school?" or "Who the hell let you in?", but I truly did enter med school with a passion that has seemed to have disappeared. It is nothing I envisioned either in my dreams or my nightmares! Anyways, I have a few questions: 1. Does anyone else feel this way, or feel better now that they are in their anesthesia residency? 2. I feel like anesthesia is different than some of the other fields (i.e. I don't like continuity of care and gas doesn't have much of this; $$$ without the endless hours of sitting on your ass writing notes about every f***ing aspect of a person's life; normal personalities w/out the outrageous cockiness of a surgeon or the uptight stick-up-their-ass internist; even though sitting on your ass in the OR is part of the job, at least you are doing SOMETHING instead of staring out the window waiting for an admission; finally, an actual punch-in punch-out schedule (for the most part) with much-needed breaks) -Is this true or am I living in a dream world???? 3. I don't want a career, I want a job - a part time job that's somewhat interesting and satisfying - I feel like there is so much more to life than just being in the hospital for most hours of the day....some might find this fulfilling, more power to ya, but I definitely want to see other things in this world. Is this feasible, or should I just quit now? 4. I have to say the only thing I do get excited about in medicine is CV/Pulm physiology and procedures...good match for anesthesia, or do I actually have to like pharm too? To all of you, I'm sorry to sound so cynical, but really I'm just trying to find out where I could fit in. I don't mean to put down the field of medicine, and for those that love it I wish I was in your shoes...but I'm not and don't want to be miserable in my job. Please feel free to pour out the advice! Thanks!