Yes it does get better!! I've struggled with that a lot, and honestly I feel like everyone experiences this at some point in their lives. Remember that you're here for a reason, you got into this program for a reason, the classmates that you look up to because you think that they are SO smart, they have insecurities as well. Pick yourself up, you got this!
I spoke to some of my classmates and apparently I’m not alone. After bombing a test and barely passing my 1st anatomy practical I felt like such failure. Specially after I found out many of my other classmates got As. It definitely felt like I didn’t belong here and I didn’t even know how I made it this far. The self doubt was real!
I do enjoy everything I’m learning and I look forward going to school every day, but I can’t lie and say I’m okay with Bs and B- specially since I was an A student throughout HS and college. Not performing at the same standards in graduate school really made me feel like crap and messed up my confidence.
Thank you everyone for the kind words.
Keep going. I did horribly my first month. I failed my first skills practical twice and had to petition to take it a second time. My second term wasn't much better. I was on the brink the entire time. Everyone thinks everyone else is doing great, but everyone is struggling and has plenty of insecurity. It's part of the process.