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I'm fairly new to this but I've read some of the previous threads and find that they are pretty helpful... So I was hoping somebody would help me out in this pickle I've found myself in.
Started dating my bf 2 years ago (undergrad) and we obviously love(d) each other very much. I've always tried to be a solid support for him whenever possible and fortunately for him, that resulted (along with his grades of course) in him getting accepted to medical school. He's now about 1500 miles away and starting med school, with all new friends and in a completely different area, people, etc... The past few weeks I've started to feel this sudden change about him. It's only natural that ppl change.. but before he left, he would've never cared what others think of him... now his priorities seem to be mixed up and being the face of parties and events seems to be somewhere near the top.
In addition to all this - we haven't spoken in about 2 weeks (because he's constantly studying). There's a text here and there, a 10 minute phone call while driving - but not like an actual real conversation that should be taking place between a bf and gf... I even tried setting up an online journal where we could respond to each other (penzu.com) and that way it would be according to his own time, but even that lasted less than 2 days. And whenever he does talk to me, it's not nice things that I'd hope he'd say. Rather, it's rude/obnoxious one-lined, sometimes hurtful, comments that makes me feel like he's just taking anger out on me. I know he still loves me and that he cares for me... but sometimes I just feel like giving up and ending it.
I know the idea of taking a 'break' has been on both our minds lately. On his because he feels he wouldn't be doing me justice by keeping me 'waiting' for 4 years; and on mine because I feel like maybe - just maybe - if he sees that all he has is medicine, he might miss me and really value/appreciate the efforts I put into keeping our LDR going (penzu, care packages, e-cards, etc...). But then I'd be afraid that he'd enjoy being on this 'break' and then we'd never get back together. Also the possibility that one of us will be interested in someone else during this indeterminate 'break'.
He's always against the idea of taking a break because he 1 doesn't believe in them and 2 doesn't want to "lose" me... so idk wat to do? just suck it up and speak to him every 1-2 weeks until we get engaged (hopefully 2-2.5 yrs), and take the risk of committing to a completely different person than I started dating 2 years ago. Or end it and just move on? I don't want to end it, but I also don't want to constantly hurt myself by always being there for him, and never having somebody in turn there for me.
Any advice/opinions?
Also - moving with him until we're married is out of the question as it's culturally unacceptable.
Greatly appreciate any responses
Started dating my bf 2 years ago (undergrad) and we obviously love(d) each other very much. I've always tried to be a solid support for him whenever possible and fortunately for him, that resulted (along with his grades of course) in him getting accepted to medical school. He's now about 1500 miles away and starting med school, with all new friends and in a completely different area, people, etc... The past few weeks I've started to feel this sudden change about him. It's only natural that ppl change.. but before he left, he would've never cared what others think of him... now his priorities seem to be mixed up and being the face of parties and events seems to be somewhere near the top.
In addition to all this - we haven't spoken in about 2 weeks (because he's constantly studying). There's a text here and there, a 10 minute phone call while driving - but not like an actual real conversation that should be taking place between a bf and gf... I even tried setting up an online journal where we could respond to each other (penzu.com) and that way it would be according to his own time, but even that lasted less than 2 days. And whenever he does talk to me, it's not nice things that I'd hope he'd say. Rather, it's rude/obnoxious one-lined, sometimes hurtful, comments that makes me feel like he's just taking anger out on me. I know he still loves me and that he cares for me... but sometimes I just feel like giving up and ending it.
I know the idea of taking a 'break' has been on both our minds lately. On his because he feels he wouldn't be doing me justice by keeping me 'waiting' for 4 years; and on mine because I feel like maybe - just maybe - if he sees that all he has is medicine, he might miss me and really value/appreciate the efforts I put into keeping our LDR going (penzu, care packages, e-cards, etc...). But then I'd be afraid that he'd enjoy being on this 'break' and then we'd never get back together. Also the possibility that one of us will be interested in someone else during this indeterminate 'break'.
He's always against the idea of taking a break because he 1 doesn't believe in them and 2 doesn't want to "lose" me... so idk wat to do? just suck it up and speak to him every 1-2 weeks until we get engaged (hopefully 2-2.5 yrs), and take the risk of committing to a completely different person than I started dating 2 years ago. Or end it and just move on? I don't want to end it, but I also don't want to constantly hurt myself by always being there for him, and never having somebody in turn there for me.
Any advice/opinions?
Also - moving with him until we're married is out of the question as it's culturally unacceptable.
Greatly appreciate any responses