this attending obviously has 'ocd' and thinks he's god, well he's truthfully an extremely talented surgeon and so rightfully does deserve a lot of credit. but he's freaky, uses foul language, and picks on me heavily - sometimes i feel like he is ready to punch me in the face. i want to do well in surgery, but i can't sit there and kiss his ass like everyone else does. in fact i do the opposite - be confronting and somewhat obnoxious - the day will definetely come when this attending will absolutely tear me apart in a loud and foul tirade with the goal of breaking me down into tears. right now when we pass each other in the halls, instead of a warm greating, we just turn our heads down to the side and mumble out a little 'he', and other times i just can't help but to push on his buttons and piss him off for no reason. didn't know i was so potentially neurotic until i get around another neurotic person. if i kiss his ass then i lose my self-dignity and he might even see that and evaluate me more poorly because of it. if i keep up my confrontations, i don't know where this will take me in the end. anyone have experience with these complex psychological interactions with attendings or residents... any suggestions... thankyou.