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Frush BW. To Those “Out There”. JAMA. 2017;318(12):1107–1108. doi:10.1001/jama.2017.10823
For anyone who has struggled with depression, anxiety, mental illness during medical school and how to present it for Residency Applications
To Those “Out There” | Humanities | JAMA | The JAMA Network
Like many of my fourth-year medical student peers, I find myself grappling with how to craft my residency application personal statement. Many struggle to avoid sounding pretentious while still demonstrating their achievements and qualifications. Some wrestle with how to describe meaningful patient interactions to illustrate what draws them to medicine. Still others find it difficult to articulate concisely why they find a given specialty compelling, or what characteristics they desire in a specific program.
Although these are issues seemingly every residency applicant faces, for students like myself, there is another question that looms larger and potentially entails more substantial ramifications. That is, whether and to what extent one should discuss one’s struggle with mental illness, for those of us who feel these experiences are an important part of our story.
Focus on depression, anxiety, and other forms of mental illness in medicine has intensified over the last decade in conjunction with heightened awareness of the burnout epidemic.1,2 This has fostered an encouraging movement toward destigmatizing these conditions and providing support for those suffering.3 Various measures to address this issue have been taken, but one of the most powerful seems to be those physicians who bravely and poignantly share their own mental illness experiences. These personal stories are immensely powerful, and frequently seem to engender a grateful and positive response from others in the medical community due to the honesty and vulnerability they exhibit. Witnessing this positive reception is especially heartening for those of us who have endured similar difficulties as medical students because they inspire hope that our mental health struggles might prove a source of strength rather than a burden or detriment.
I have certainly found this to be the case with my own experience. As a medical student, I have suffered two significant bouts of depression and anxiety, the second for which I took a brief leave for treatment. The faculty, staff, and students at my institution have been remarkably supportive throughout this process, and I have been delighted to experience firsthand the edifying responses to mental health difficulties that I read about in responses to the stories of others. Moreover, I have been surprised to never encounter a negative reaction to sharing my story, given the stigmatizing view I have heard many in medicine still hold toward mental illness.
Yet in the process of preparing my personal statement for my residency application, I have been disappointed to find that this positive response may not be the case elsewhere. In conversations with mentors about how to craft my statement, many have advised strongly against including this element of my journey, for fear that it could render me a less competitive applicant. None of these mentors have been anything but understanding of my illness, yet they all note that there are those who will view this factor as a decided weakness. When I press further about this to find out who and where these people are, what I hear is always the same frustrating and cryptic response: “Trust me, they are out there.”
Having not personally encountered or spoken with an individual “out there,” who reacts negatively to shared stories of mental illness, I feel compelled to address this audience on behalf of others who struggle with how and to whom to tell their stories. For those “out there,” I would like to offer three real problems with this pervasive stigma as it relates to those applying for residency and in career advancement in medicine more generally.
First, those “out there” contradict and stultify the prevailing message we learn in medical school about mental illness in medicine. For all of the (seemingly unanimous) administration and faculty voices that tell us that we are not alone, that say that mental illness is not something to be ashamed of, that encourage us to seek help and access resources, when we cannot be honest in this most critical juncture of our professional lives about mental illness, these messages amount to little more than lip service. For those “out there” who silently but potently countervail these supportive voices, please know that this sends a confusing message to students who hear one reality spoken but experience another.
Second, those “out there” cause medical students to deprioritize their own health. We are taught to create space for patients with mental illness to feel safe and vulnerable, and that attending to mental illness frankly and openly is a crucial component of overall health. Therefore, when students are tacitly discouraged by those “out there” from extending the same approach to ourselves or our peers in medicine, it follows that we are not pursuing our own health. This dissonance between the health we pursue for our patients and the health we pursue for ourselves indicates either that we hold ourselves to a different understanding of health than those we serve or that our own health must be subordinated to our work as physicians, neither of which is just.
Third, and perhaps most importantly, those “out there” undermine the moral component of medicine that is constitutive of good physicians. Since the time of Hippocrates, physicians have not simply been viewed as technicians or providers; they have been endowed with the task to fulfill their duty with integrity and honesty. If we feel compelled to lie to ourselves, our peers, and those reading our applications, we are setting a dangerous precedent for our future moral work as physicians. Students who feel pressured to present a false image of themselves in order to match at a program that may not be well-suited to accommodate their needs potentially do both themselves and the programs to which they apply a disservice. Moreover, such an assumption establishes a pernicious norm for what it takes to advance in medicine, namely to maintain a disingenuous veneer of perfection in the face of the deep imperfections we all hold.
There is no intent here to encourage medical students applying for residency to decide one way or another to divulge their mental illness. Such a directive would be misguided because these are intrinsically personal decisions that require much discernment about when, where, and with whom to share. However, it is crucial that we work collectively, including those “out there,” to cultivate an environment that is hospitable to honesty and vulnerability, that allows individuals to feel safe to share if they deem this fitting.
On behalf of others struggling with how to broach the subject of mental illness in the context of residency (or fellowship, or faculty) applications, I conclude with a modest proposal to those “out there,” one intended as earnest rather than antagonistic. Can we talk? Can we share our stories, but also learn from you? Can we discuss what informs the assumption that mental illness is better hidden than divulged? Can we explore the beliefs, both legitimate and misguided, that undergird this assumption? For in the absence of this discourse, I fear that those who are “out there” will ironically continue to make those who experience mental illness feel like the ones who are actually on the outside.
Section Editor: Preeti Malani, MD, MSJ, Associate Editor.
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Corresponding Author: Benjamin W. Frush, MA, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill School of Medicine, 321 S Columbia St, Chapel Hill, NC 27516 ([email protected]).
Conflict of Interest Disclosures: The author has completed and submitted the ICMJE Form for Disclosure of Potential Conflicts of Interest and no disclosures were reported.
References
1.
Mata DA, Ramos MA, Bansal N, et al. Prevalence of depression and depressive symptoms among resident physicians: a systematic review and meta-analysis. JAMA. 2015;314(22):2373-2383.PubMedArticle
2.
Rotenstein LS, Ramos MA, Torre M, et al. Prevalence of depression, depressive symptoms, and suicidal ideation among medical students: a systematic review and meta-analysis. JAMA. 2016;316(21):2214-2236.PubMedArticle
3.
Moutier C, Norcross W, Jong P, et al. The suicide prevention and depression awareness program at the University of California, San Diego School of Medicine. Acad Med. 2012;87(3):320-326.PubMedArticle
For anyone who has struggled with depression, anxiety, mental illness during medical school and how to present it for Residency Applications
To Those “Out There” | Humanities | JAMA | The JAMA Network
Like many of my fourth-year medical student peers, I find myself grappling with how to craft my residency application personal statement. Many struggle to avoid sounding pretentious while still demonstrating their achievements and qualifications. Some wrestle with how to describe meaningful patient interactions to illustrate what draws them to medicine. Still others find it difficult to articulate concisely why they find a given specialty compelling, or what characteristics they desire in a specific program.
Although these are issues seemingly every residency applicant faces, for students like myself, there is another question that looms larger and potentially entails more substantial ramifications. That is, whether and to what extent one should discuss one’s struggle with mental illness, for those of us who feel these experiences are an important part of our story.
Focus on depression, anxiety, and other forms of mental illness in medicine has intensified over the last decade in conjunction with heightened awareness of the burnout epidemic.1,2 This has fostered an encouraging movement toward destigmatizing these conditions and providing support for those suffering.3 Various measures to address this issue have been taken, but one of the most powerful seems to be those physicians who bravely and poignantly share their own mental illness experiences. These personal stories are immensely powerful, and frequently seem to engender a grateful and positive response from others in the medical community due to the honesty and vulnerability they exhibit. Witnessing this positive reception is especially heartening for those of us who have endured similar difficulties as medical students because they inspire hope that our mental health struggles might prove a source of strength rather than a burden or detriment.
I have certainly found this to be the case with my own experience. As a medical student, I have suffered two significant bouts of depression and anxiety, the second for which I took a brief leave for treatment. The faculty, staff, and students at my institution have been remarkably supportive throughout this process, and I have been delighted to experience firsthand the edifying responses to mental health difficulties that I read about in responses to the stories of others. Moreover, I have been surprised to never encounter a negative reaction to sharing my story, given the stigmatizing view I have heard many in medicine still hold toward mental illness.
Yet in the process of preparing my personal statement for my residency application, I have been disappointed to find that this positive response may not be the case elsewhere. In conversations with mentors about how to craft my statement, many have advised strongly against including this element of my journey, for fear that it could render me a less competitive applicant. None of these mentors have been anything but understanding of my illness, yet they all note that there are those who will view this factor as a decided weakness. When I press further about this to find out who and where these people are, what I hear is always the same frustrating and cryptic response: “Trust me, they are out there.”
Having not personally encountered or spoken with an individual “out there,” who reacts negatively to shared stories of mental illness, I feel compelled to address this audience on behalf of others who struggle with how and to whom to tell their stories. For those “out there,” I would like to offer three real problems with this pervasive stigma as it relates to those applying for residency and in career advancement in medicine more generally.
First, those “out there” contradict and stultify the prevailing message we learn in medical school about mental illness in medicine. For all of the (seemingly unanimous) administration and faculty voices that tell us that we are not alone, that say that mental illness is not something to be ashamed of, that encourage us to seek help and access resources, when we cannot be honest in this most critical juncture of our professional lives about mental illness, these messages amount to little more than lip service. For those “out there” who silently but potently countervail these supportive voices, please know that this sends a confusing message to students who hear one reality spoken but experience another.
Second, those “out there” cause medical students to deprioritize their own health. We are taught to create space for patients with mental illness to feel safe and vulnerable, and that attending to mental illness frankly and openly is a crucial component of overall health. Therefore, when students are tacitly discouraged by those “out there” from extending the same approach to ourselves or our peers in medicine, it follows that we are not pursuing our own health. This dissonance between the health we pursue for our patients and the health we pursue for ourselves indicates either that we hold ourselves to a different understanding of health than those we serve or that our own health must be subordinated to our work as physicians, neither of which is just.
Third, and perhaps most importantly, those “out there” undermine the moral component of medicine that is constitutive of good physicians. Since the time of Hippocrates, physicians have not simply been viewed as technicians or providers; they have been endowed with the task to fulfill their duty with integrity and honesty. If we feel compelled to lie to ourselves, our peers, and those reading our applications, we are setting a dangerous precedent for our future moral work as physicians. Students who feel pressured to present a false image of themselves in order to match at a program that may not be well-suited to accommodate their needs potentially do both themselves and the programs to which they apply a disservice. Moreover, such an assumption establishes a pernicious norm for what it takes to advance in medicine, namely to maintain a disingenuous veneer of perfection in the face of the deep imperfections we all hold.
There is no intent here to encourage medical students applying for residency to decide one way or another to divulge their mental illness. Such a directive would be misguided because these are intrinsically personal decisions that require much discernment about when, where, and with whom to share. However, it is crucial that we work collectively, including those “out there,” to cultivate an environment that is hospitable to honesty and vulnerability, that allows individuals to feel safe to share if they deem this fitting.
On behalf of others struggling with how to broach the subject of mental illness in the context of residency (or fellowship, or faculty) applications, I conclude with a modest proposal to those “out there,” one intended as earnest rather than antagonistic. Can we talk? Can we share our stories, but also learn from you? Can we discuss what informs the assumption that mental illness is better hidden than divulged? Can we explore the beliefs, both legitimate and misguided, that undergird this assumption? For in the absence of this discourse, I fear that those who are “out there” will ironically continue to make those who experience mental illness feel like the ones who are actually on the outside.
Section Editor: Preeti Malani, MD, MSJ, Associate Editor.
Back to top
Article Information
Corresponding Author: Benjamin W. Frush, MA, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill School of Medicine, 321 S Columbia St, Chapel Hill, NC 27516 ([email protected]).
Conflict of Interest Disclosures: The author has completed and submitted the ICMJE Form for Disclosure of Potential Conflicts of Interest and no disclosures were reported.
References
1.
Mata DA, Ramos MA, Bansal N, et al. Prevalence of depression and depressive symptoms among resident physicians: a systematic review and meta-analysis. JAMA. 2015;314(22):2373-2383.PubMedArticle
2.
Rotenstein LS, Ramos MA, Torre M, et al. Prevalence of depression, depressive symptoms, and suicidal ideation among medical students: a systematic review and meta-analysis. JAMA. 2016;316(21):2214-2236.PubMedArticle
3.
Moutier C, Norcross W, Jong P, et al. The suicide prevention and depression awareness program at the University of California, San Diego School of Medicine. Acad Med. 2012;87(3):320-326.PubMedArticle