Hi all - I used to lurk this forum a lot back in the day prior to med school. And now I'm set to graduate this upcoming summer. I thought I knew what it meant to pursue medicine, but I think through the years this reality has really hit me in the face in ways it had not until I was facing residency. That's what this post is about. Talking to all the pre-meds here about if medicine (as a physician) really is the right route for you or not.
You work your ass off to get an application for medical school. Excel in college, do a bunch of ECs, research, make connections, shadowing.. perhaps even above and beyond with a Master's, postbac, DIY grade repair, you name it. At this point you've shelled out some tens of thousands of dollars about anywhere from 4-7+ years of your life. Then you take the MCAT, spend money on apps.. hope that a school takes you. Then your life changes drastically. You go from working or studying 25-30 hours/week to studying 60+ hours of week. What does that look like? You're in class M-F usually 8-5pm. Focusing all of those 9 hours. Then there's SIMs, clinicals, tests.. God the endless amounts of tests. I lost count of how many tests I had to study and sit for by the end of M1 alone.
Then you start your clinical years. I'm talking anywhere from M-F 8-5pm to M-Sat 4:30am-6pm. You show up to work (where you pay to be at) and your entire purpose is to make people like you and write nice things about you. The entire existence of a M3-M4 is you're bottom of the totem pole, constantly an extra annoyance/task for everyone on the floor, awkwardly an outsider in every environment where you have to meet and fit into a new team dynamic every few weeks. At some point, you're basically an intern.. again working while paying the hospital you're writing notes and seeing patients for. At this point, you're anywhere from $250-400K in debt. You pay for your own board exams ($1K/piece), residency applications ($1-3K total), likely moving expenses once you land a job.
Okay now you're a resident. You made it through medical school, man you thought that was hard huh? Now it steps UP a notch. You thought there was light at the end of the tunnel? There's not. Kiss away most of your free time if you haven't already. You're working 6 days a week, likely anywhere from 60-90 hours/week. If you don't know what that feels like, again imagine Mon-Sat or 7 days a week of 5AM-6PM. Interspersed 28 hours of call time. You stay up all 24 hours then have to round the next morning and chart until you can zombie drive your way home. That goes on for another 3-7 years.
At this point you're 6-10 years invested. A whole decade has gone by. You've been working your ass off full gears since you sat for that MCAT. It is hard to understand the reality of this decision until you are way too deep into it. This is one of the most toughest, challenging, demanding jobs you can sign yourself up for. You WILL give up free time, happiness, work-life balance, relationships at some point. It is not a matter of if, but when and for how long. It is up to you to figure out how to balance it and if you love it enough for it to be worth it.
I love what I do. I'm thrilled I'm in medicine and I'm one of the lucky ones. As I near the end of my schooling, I see the suffering of a lot of my classmates who did not realize what they got themselves into (I argue most of us don't actually understand) and now do not have that intrinsic drive to justify it. But it is too late because we're all saddled with debt that could not possibly be overcome unless you have a job like medicine (or law, finance, tech).
All of you bright eyed smart kids out of college think you want to be physicians. It sounds sexy, cool, powerful to be the head of a medical team making decisions about people's health, often abridging the line of life and death. But frankly, no one could possibly understand the personal sacrifice of this privilege until you are way too deep to financially recover should you change your mind. So the next time someone gawks at the "minimal clinical hours" required to apply to medical school.. or the service hours showing commitment to helping others.. I say lean into that, think about what the purpose of that is. Trying to force applicants to somewhat replicate a small fraction of the lifestyle that is required to do medicine for real.
I think it is important to really reflect on if you want to give up portions of your life in order to help others.. with their medical needs that is. We are essentially customer service. Patients can be demanding, entitled, quick to sue.. it is a litigation bloodbath in some fields where decisions are made out of fear more than medical necessity. But it is also incredibly rewarding and inspiring to see how the knowledge you acquire can change, save, or help a life in such a dramatically impactful way. It is important to realize there are many ways to help people however, going through thousands of clinical vignettes, listening to hundreds of abdominal complaints, and agonizing over whether to correct a sodium of 132 however is not for everyone.
What I'm trying to mostly say is.. if you're not sure you have the intrinsic drive to do this and give up parts of your life/self for this career.. for all that is good in the world DO SOMETHING ELSE. There are so many other sexy, powerful, rewarding jobs that don't grind you to the ground and then serve you up a bill for $250-300K.
I will get off my soap box now. If you love it, you will love it. This is not meant to scare the ones in it for the right reasons. But if I can steer away one person who isn't and save them years and $$$ of misery, that would be an essay and evening well-spent. GL this application season.
You work your ass off to get an application for medical school. Excel in college, do a bunch of ECs, research, make connections, shadowing.. perhaps even above and beyond with a Master's, postbac, DIY grade repair, you name it. At this point you've shelled out some tens of thousands of dollars about anywhere from 4-7+ years of your life. Then you take the MCAT, spend money on apps.. hope that a school takes you. Then your life changes drastically. You go from working or studying 25-30 hours/week to studying 60+ hours of week. What does that look like? You're in class M-F usually 8-5pm. Focusing all of those 9 hours. Then there's SIMs, clinicals, tests.. God the endless amounts of tests. I lost count of how many tests I had to study and sit for by the end of M1 alone.
Then you start your clinical years. I'm talking anywhere from M-F 8-5pm to M-Sat 4:30am-6pm. You show up to work (where you pay to be at) and your entire purpose is to make people like you and write nice things about you. The entire existence of a M3-M4 is you're bottom of the totem pole, constantly an extra annoyance/task for everyone on the floor, awkwardly an outsider in every environment where you have to meet and fit into a new team dynamic every few weeks. At some point, you're basically an intern.. again working while paying the hospital you're writing notes and seeing patients for. At this point, you're anywhere from $250-400K in debt. You pay for your own board exams ($1K/piece), residency applications ($1-3K total), likely moving expenses once you land a job.
Okay now you're a resident. You made it through medical school, man you thought that was hard huh? Now it steps UP a notch. You thought there was light at the end of the tunnel? There's not. Kiss away most of your free time if you haven't already. You're working 6 days a week, likely anywhere from 60-90 hours/week. If you don't know what that feels like, again imagine Mon-Sat or 7 days a week of 5AM-6PM. Interspersed 28 hours of call time. You stay up all 24 hours then have to round the next morning and chart until you can zombie drive your way home. That goes on for another 3-7 years.
At this point you're 6-10 years invested. A whole decade has gone by. You've been working your ass off full gears since you sat for that MCAT. It is hard to understand the reality of this decision until you are way too deep into it. This is one of the most toughest, challenging, demanding jobs you can sign yourself up for. You WILL give up free time, happiness, work-life balance, relationships at some point. It is not a matter of if, but when and for how long. It is up to you to figure out how to balance it and if you love it enough for it to be worth it.
I love what I do. I'm thrilled I'm in medicine and I'm one of the lucky ones. As I near the end of my schooling, I see the suffering of a lot of my classmates who did not realize what they got themselves into (I argue most of us don't actually understand) and now do not have that intrinsic drive to justify it. But it is too late because we're all saddled with debt that could not possibly be overcome unless you have a job like medicine (or law, finance, tech).
All of you bright eyed smart kids out of college think you want to be physicians. It sounds sexy, cool, powerful to be the head of a medical team making decisions about people's health, often abridging the line of life and death. But frankly, no one could possibly understand the personal sacrifice of this privilege until you are way too deep to financially recover should you change your mind. So the next time someone gawks at the "minimal clinical hours" required to apply to medical school.. or the service hours showing commitment to helping others.. I say lean into that, think about what the purpose of that is. Trying to force applicants to somewhat replicate a small fraction of the lifestyle that is required to do medicine for real.
I think it is important to really reflect on if you want to give up portions of your life in order to help others.. with their medical needs that is. We are essentially customer service. Patients can be demanding, entitled, quick to sue.. it is a litigation bloodbath in some fields where decisions are made out of fear more than medical necessity. But it is also incredibly rewarding and inspiring to see how the knowledge you acquire can change, save, or help a life in such a dramatically impactful way. It is important to realize there are many ways to help people however, going through thousands of clinical vignettes, listening to hundreds of abdominal complaints, and agonizing over whether to correct a sodium of 132 however is not for everyone.
What I'm trying to mostly say is.. if you're not sure you have the intrinsic drive to do this and give up parts of your life/self for this career.. for all that is good in the world DO SOMETHING ELSE. There are so many other sexy, powerful, rewarding jobs that don't grind you to the ground and then serve you up a bill for $250-300K.
I will get off my soap box now. If you love it, you will love it. This is not meant to scare the ones in it for the right reasons. But if I can steer away one person who isn't and save them years and $$$ of misery, that would be an essay and evening well-spent. GL this application season.