Hi everyone. I am a 19 year old female and a freshman/sophomore in college and I am need to great advice from you guys. I have always been good in studies ( not a genius but never have to worry about school). But since the past three years, I have been going through a terrible depression. I am almost in a constant gloomy depressive state and do nothing but go to school and come back home. But what scares me, despite all this, is that I cannot concentrate in school and lectures of my professors. I feel like I have lost all my energy before a semester even begins so I always end up getting B's in all my classes. I feel I have the capability of getting a A ( and my test score in begginning of semester is always above 95 but towards the end of the semester my depression starts getting the beter of me I just end up surrendering) but its just that I cannot remember the professors lecture, and the things I read. I constantly have to write things down so i dont keep forgetting abt it but now I cannot keep writing down things anymore: I am tired.
But despite all this I have been looking over the mcat test. I have not taken any premed courses yet. But I want to practice to mcat now because I dont want to realize four years later that I don't have the intelligence to be a doctor and then change my career al over again. I am just practicing the verbal section of the mcat because I have always have low concentration in reading and I obviously cannot practice for the science section because I haven't taken the courses( and I am pretty sure about doing well in the science section because I like science). I have been getting a consistent 10's in all the verbal sec. of aamc tests I have taken so far and I am quite happy with this ( considering how poor I am in reading). But it take me about 3-4hrs of reading, walking around and then reading to finish the mcat verbal section. This is mostly because I never have the single minded attention to a passage I am reading for the first time. So I always end up rereading the passage and I also keep forgetting what I read in a passage so I constantly have to keep going back.
So I guess what I want to know from you guys is that should I go ahead with the pre-medical field. I know I will get out of my depression sooner or later but do you think I can improve my timing because I think its ridiculous that its taking me 4 hrs to finish the verbal section. I am in the verge of giving up everything in my life rite now because I am just so tired from my depression. But I still want to prepare for my future and do things to the best of my abilities. Thanks.
But despite all this I have been looking over the mcat test. I have not taken any premed courses yet. But I want to practice to mcat now because I dont want to realize four years later that I don't have the intelligence to be a doctor and then change my career al over again. I am just practicing the verbal section of the mcat because I have always have low concentration in reading and I obviously cannot practice for the science section because I haven't taken the courses( and I am pretty sure about doing well in the science section because I like science). I have been getting a consistent 10's in all the verbal sec. of aamc tests I have taken so far and I am quite happy with this ( considering how poor I am in reading). But it take me about 3-4hrs of reading, walking around and then reading to finish the mcat verbal section. This is mostly because I never have the single minded attention to a passage I am reading for the first time. So I always end up rereading the passage and I also keep forgetting what I read in a passage so I constantly have to keep going back.
So I guess what I want to know from you guys is that should I go ahead with the pre-medical field. I know I will get out of my depression sooner or later but do you think I can improve my timing because I think its ridiculous that its taking me 4 hrs to finish the verbal section. I am in the verge of giving up everything in my life rite now because I am just so tired from my depression. But I still want to prepare for my future and do things to the best of my abilities. Thanks.
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