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I guess it's normal to want to quit on the first day of internship. 30 hours straight, no lunch, no dinner, 2 bathroom breaks total, taking care of 24 transplant surgery patients with 6 new admits and 6 d/c's ... I don't understand how people do it! I even had help (though I won't next call 3 days from now!) but I'm still receiving a page every 2 minutes while trying to put in orders, consults, answer pages, and navigate an unfamiliar, quirky system. I can't keep a single patient's story in my head, nor answer a single question by the boss ie. "so, did she get up yesterday? So did we restart her Tacro? So why isn't she on SQH?'" - important Q's I just can't answer. Rounds the next morning were a disaster because i forgot to staple the list on the right side of the page, didn't fill out all of the signout that I thought auto-populated itself from the list, and forgot to place several, life-alteringly important orders (ie kayaxelate!!). I had like 5 different pieces of paper with orders/consults/recs/admits/signoffs on them that i'd switch to as i ran out of room on the last one... I just couldn't keep up. The fellow and chief just rolled their eyes, and casually cracked jokes about the various mishaps but didn't really provide criticism, sympath, or praise. And I did not sleep at all because I was trying to get that list ready... Perhaps what gets me the most is my fellow interns who admittedly weren't delegating or answering pages seem to KNOW these patients much better than i do - they KNOW that abd u/s took place yesterday. How do they do it? Honestly if it weren't for financial obligations... I truly don't want to stomach another one of those calls. Taking care of patients doesn't really scare me, although even refractory heartburn is a medical challenge for someone of my level. Admittedly I don't particularly feel a sense of "joy or satisfaction" from patient interaction either. But it's the logistics I can't seem to handle. I hope it gets better. I can't believe I have a year of this!