Second year repetition and overcoming some personal things

[Inveniam_Viam]

Hi guys, I am second year student from an Osteopathic medical school. I am currently facing the possibility of repeating second year. I won't find out until grades are finalized.

I am currently in position where I have accepted my failures and ready for the inevitable. I contemplated doing something to myself, then thought about my girlfriend and my parents, it would be beyond any reasonable amount of selfishness to hurt my loved ones because of my own incompetency. So I decided, whatever may come, I will fight, if not for myself, at least for the sake of my loved ones.

As of now, the only person who knows about my situation is my girlfriend, who has been helping me tremendously. I really want to tell this to my parents, but I am afraid how it will affect them. I can't imagine seeing my parents get hurt. I won't be able to handle it if anything happens to them. I have struggled with depression around quarter way into second year. This was one of the contributing factor to the failure of my first course and now I'm facing the worst of my fears.

How would you guys handle this situation? If any of you have faced similar situation, please share some of your own personal experience. Thank you guys!

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[HMtoDO]

You need to seek professional help asap for your mental instability. That should be your only priority at this point. Take a LOA if needed. Good luck.


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[IslandStyle808]

I've seen far too many similar situation on SDN to date. You will need to do the following first.

1) Find a health counselor/school psychologist/or psychiatrist and speak to them ASAP about what is going on in your life.
2) Get to a learning specialist and trouble shoot the problems in how you handle classes. If you are currently doing this, please keep this going because then you will have built a track record of seeking help.
3) These people will help guide you through the process of dealing with your class, depression, and talking with your loved ones about what you are going through. The more people who can help you through these tough times the better.

 

[ortnakas]

You're not the first medical student to struggle with depression and you won't be the last. Get help now. Nothing to be ashamed of.