It's easy to keep your head buried in the sand about the reality of the retail pharmacy as long the paychecks keep coming.
It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that the first job I ever had will be the peak of how much I will make. If I make a choice here it will cost me and my family a lot financially. But, at the rate it is going for me now, I will end up losing my family or my life if I stay in this position. I have to choose myself and my family, I'm just fearful of the unknown.
I have enough saved up to live for a little period of time comfortably, but I don't know if I will ever be able to make what I am making now and give them whatever they want. There will always be that thought in the back of my head, what if I stayed, would it have been better? I suppose I should be grateful for what I have for now.
I don't have anything else lined up, no real connections, nothing of that sort. Best I can figure is if the worst happens when I ask to step down, and get blacklisted from the company, I may be able to find some per diem/part-time work at an LTC, specialty, infusion, whatever. Branch out a little, see what else the world has to offer. Maybe that could lead to full-time employment elsewhere, who knows. But I'll always have that voice in the back of my head, "what if I stayed, just rode it out for 2 more years". May have the cash, but my family will be gone. I can't have that.
I feel that I can communicate to my DM diplomatically, I'm just fearful of the reprisals. I'm still thinking of how to even broach the subject with him because he likely doesn't think there is any sort of problem with me. One thing this job has taught me is to smile despite hating myself on the inside.
Glad to hear that you have something lined up- this is something I should have been thinking about two years ago, but was too busy pretending that I'll be in this job for the rest of my life. Good luck.