Yea I am not sure why I thought a 215 was so many % correct, but I feel like still not knowing that by now has revealed my lack my of preparation
That makes much more sense, with the average being more in line with %correct on regular med school exam.
I think subconsciously I have been trying to set myself up for the worst possible outcome so that whatever ends up happening is better than what I make myself believe is going to happen.
Take this as a gentle lesson to spend less time arguing about what you think is definitely the case and more time actively trying to find out if it is. Every single time I write anything, whenever I come across a specific fact (unless I have referenced it so many times that I am superbly confident, and even then I sometimes double check), I actually look it up. I'm more interested in being right at the end of a conversation than I am about asserting my correctness at the beginning. It just so happens that these topics are ones with which I am extremely well acquainted. I can assure everyone that I did not develop, implement, and then manage and hand off the entire USMLE preparatory framework for the UQ-O students by being minimally informed and making stuff up. I did not manage to get UQ to spend the reasonably significant amount of money on QBanks and tutorials because 25 points above min pass is a "really good" score or because it can reasonably be postponed until after M3 year.
Your last sentence shows some self insight and introspection. Keep it up. Play this game to win, not to not lose. Don't set yourself up for the worst and be happy with anything, go for the jugular and set yourself up to the best you possibly can. That may not be a 240 or 250. And it will involve many more factors than just your raw brain power and abilities. But the way to make yourself happy at the end of the day is not to be so dismal that anything seems better than what you thought, but to be able to genuinely look back and say that your score was quite literally the best you could have possibly achieved given all the circumstances and be sincerely and deservedly proud of that.
This test is very doable. Honestly. And it is honestly very doable before M3 year as a UQ-O. Do not fear the test. But you must respect the test for what it is and not what you wish it were or even what it actually should be. You must know and understand the test itself and the process for residency application inside and out to maximize your chances, something vital for anyone but absolutely critical for an IMG already at an unfair (yes, I said it unfair) disadvantage. Nobody will spoon feed you everything you need. You must take initiative yourself and find ways to get the information you need. This is a crucial skill for success in our field.