Just received an email from one of the colleges I applied to, and said I was denied an interview. I have 3/4 of my colleges left to hear from but the that sent the letter was the graduate school of the undergrad school I'm at right now, the school that I assumed I would have an advantage at. Sorry if this doesn't really fit here.
I went to an early college when I was about 15-16 years old to the age of 19, which means that I was taking community college classes along side my highschool classes. I ended up graduating with 2 associates degrees (one in science and one in arts). I wish that I never made the choice of going there. What no one told me at the time is that my early college credits are still going to be viewed when I apply to dental school. Obviously, I wasn't able to do swimmingly with these college classes between the them, the normal highschool classes, and the typical highschool anxiety issues. Now its haunting me all the way to my senior year of undergrad. Not only were my grades mediocre, I had to take much more difficult classes to get my associates degree, something that was heavily advertised and shoved down my throat when I first entered my early college. I had to take classes like accounting and calculus for example. I also had to deal with systemic issues when entering undergraduate; I wasn't given the time to pick out the classes I needed in my freshman year because the school didn't allow me as I was lumped into the freshman crowd, meaning I missed out on all of the higher STEM classes and had to fill my entire schedule with humanities , thus I couldn't evenly balance my classes in my later years. Hell, I had to take physio, physio lab, and biostats in a summer semester just to make sure I wouldn't be loaded on 4-5 hard STEM classes in my senior semesters.
I know these sound like excuses so I'll admit, I didn't do well in some of my classes like organic chemistry classes or genetics. Its just that its always that schools push students to challenge themselves, but there is no benefit of the doubt or any degree of acknowledgment when those students don't do so well. I just wish someone can throw me a bone. It feels like I climbed up a tree, I fell down, broke my legs, and now I can't stand up for myself anymore.
Again, I get that I may be making excuses for myself, I just needed to talk to someone about this and put it down somewhere.
I went to an early college when I was about 15-16 years old to the age of 19, which means that I was taking community college classes along side my highschool classes. I ended up graduating with 2 associates degrees (one in science and one in arts). I wish that I never made the choice of going there. What no one told me at the time is that my early college credits are still going to be viewed when I apply to dental school. Obviously, I wasn't able to do swimmingly with these college classes between the them, the normal highschool classes, and the typical highschool anxiety issues. Now its haunting me all the way to my senior year of undergrad. Not only were my grades mediocre, I had to take much more difficult classes to get my associates degree, something that was heavily advertised and shoved down my throat when I first entered my early college. I had to take classes like accounting and calculus for example. I also had to deal with systemic issues when entering undergraduate; I wasn't given the time to pick out the classes I needed in my freshman year because the school didn't allow me as I was lumped into the freshman crowd, meaning I missed out on all of the higher STEM classes and had to fill my entire schedule with humanities , thus I couldn't evenly balance my classes in my later years. Hell, I had to take physio, physio lab, and biostats in a summer semester just to make sure I wouldn't be loaded on 4-5 hard STEM classes in my senior semesters.
I know these sound like excuses so I'll admit, I didn't do well in some of my classes like organic chemistry classes or genetics. Its just that its always that schools push students to challenge themselves, but there is no benefit of the doubt or any degree of acknowledgment when those students don't do so well. I just wish someone can throw me a bone. It feels like I climbed up a tree, I fell down, broke my legs, and now I can't stand up for myself anymore.
Again, I get that I may be making excuses for myself, I just needed to talk to someone about this and put it down somewhere.