This is my first post on SDN, but I've been reading these forums for years. Recently, I've been caught up in something a bit crazy and thought maybe SDN can help me. I'll try to make it brief:
I've liked a guy for a while now, and all through last semester, I've been trying to find ways to talk to him. He knows me like a colleague, but never really took the chance to know me as a friend. We didn't have any classes together, so I guess that made it harder to find opportunities to meet :/
I'm also pretty shy when it comes to "making a move" so nothing ever materialized, although I'm pretty sure he must have noticed me hyperventilating around him. After watching my plight, my friend thought it would be fun to prank text him to see if he liked anyone and just get him talking. She texted him as a fake-name student in a class he TAed for, and later asked him if he wanted to hang out. To our surprise, he showed interest and started talking. I've been texting him for a week now and never knew he could be so much fun to talk to. He keeps flirting with me and saying how much he really likes talking to me. He wants to hang out and says he wishes he had met me earlier.
It makes me feel good because I'm being the 'real me' (as in showcasing my personality) when I talk to him, and he likes that. However, he obv doesn't know it's me…he still thinks I'm a student with a different name. I didn't lie to him anymore after that, but I can't keep deceiving him like this. If only I had texted him like this as the real me when we first met!
At the same time, I'm sure he will stop talking to me if I tell him I lied. And I don't want that to happen. I'm taking my MCAT in 3 weeks, and it's weird, but talking to him calms me down lol I guess it kinda helps relieve my stress idk. I feel all jumpy when I
don't talk to him that day and I always look forward to his texts. I might be overreacting, but I'm worried ending this game abruptly will affect my MCAT studying. I want to eventually tell him the truth, but should I wait until after my test is over?
So there it is. I feel terrible and desperate. I honestly didn't think it would get this far after my friend texted him randomly for fun. But it did, and now I feel a little dependent on talking to him. I wish I could say his texts were so bad it made me get over him, but on the contrary, I'm starting to like him even more.
What do I do??