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I would still have some exams to pass, but I have passed many also, however I had probably the most brutal existential twists in my entire life and now I just can't seem to find enough motivation to continue on this path. This field, in which I put so much hope and effort, turns out to be another deal-breaker for me.
Why is that ?
Besides this, I have a very wild and non-conformist nature, so there is something inside me that rebels against this whole Medical culture.
Quoting George Carlin's words ( it fits perfectly this situation ) : " F*ck those people. F*ck that ****. Look at this stupid ****. " - Somehow no matter how great I think the Medical field could be, the reality always makes me think about the previous statements.
I listened to more than a hundred different people who work in the field, the ones who have actually found some peace and joy, and I've come to the conclusion that they all made compromises one way or another. I wouldn't be able to make these compromises and I think I would never truly fit in.
This is not even an easy decision for me, because honestly I have nothing to go to, if I quit Medicine, I have to start from scratch in any field, so it's not like I'm taking the easy way out or that I would be a coward, actually I'm terrified of what is ahead of me if I quit. The only thing that wouldn't be a problem is the debt, because I don't have a debt to pay back ( yes, I know for many of you this is an enormous thing, but trust me, the fact that I have no skills whatsoever or idea about what to do with my life is crippling enough ).
Thanks for reading, maybe some of you can relate or even if not, any opinion is welcomed !
Why is that ?
- I realized I don't want to spend the rest of my life with the people in this field. I don't want to offend anyone and I know many of you are great persons, but there is simply an excess of those types of persons that I don't want to deal with on a daily basis.
- Both my parents are doctors and they are still very hypocritical and puzzled about the reason they chose Medicine: they say it was passion, but for most part of my life, I saw them struggling; I saw them doing it mostly for the money, because back in their times the investment was way smaller and the profit was way bigger, so I think it was a great career choice for them, however it wasn't something they were genuinely passionate about and I see the same thing at my peers ( a dishonest person will always recognize another dishonest person, so it's not hard to tell who is truly passionate about it and who is faking it ); I would say that it just shows on their face that if someone would give them the salary for the rest of their lives as a physician, they would quit pursuing Medicine - because their passion is a forced and faked passion, if there would be no money in it, many would quit
- Finally, the most important part : I had my own "military philosophy" about life a few years ago and I said that I'm going to grab all the extremely unattractive parts of Medicine and I'm going to use them to discipline myself, but I just don't want this anymore and not because I couldn't do it, but because I don't see a point in doing it anymore. I'm waking up every morning and thinking to myself that "You're 23, you're 23, you're 23....." and I see everything going so slow and so monotonous every single day, and I'm thinking to myself that yes, I wanted this very much, but I don't want to spend my youth becoming a full-time robot, living up to others' expectations all the time, rushing like a headless chicken, etc.
Besides this, I have a very wild and non-conformist nature, so there is something inside me that rebels against this whole Medical culture.
Quoting George Carlin's words ( it fits perfectly this situation ) : " F*ck those people. F*ck that ****. Look at this stupid ****. " - Somehow no matter how great I think the Medical field could be, the reality always makes me think about the previous statements.
I listened to more than a hundred different people who work in the field, the ones who have actually found some peace and joy, and I've come to the conclusion that they all made compromises one way or another. I wouldn't be able to make these compromises and I think I would never truly fit in.
This is not even an easy decision for me, because honestly I have nothing to go to, if I quit Medicine, I have to start from scratch in any field, so it's not like I'm taking the easy way out or that I would be a coward, actually I'm terrified of what is ahead of me if I quit. The only thing that wouldn't be a problem is the debt, because I don't have a debt to pay back ( yes, I know for many of you this is an enormous thing, but trust me, the fact that I have no skills whatsoever or idea about what to do with my life is crippling enough ).
Thanks for reading, maybe some of you can relate or even if not, any opinion is welcomed !
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