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Hello!
It's been so long since I've been here that I feel so much embarrassment looking at my old posts.
Quick Summary:
I got good grades my entire <18 life without trying, scored well on standardized exams, etc. But have always been a very anxious person. I spent more time procrastinating by worrying about something than doing that thing.
So... Going to a "top" university that graded on a bell curve was quite the wake up call and did pretty bad. Barely studied even when pulling all-nighters. I did do significantly better my senior year and then did a year of postbacc at a local university with 4.0 (Chem/Physics/Bio). I then did a few years of clinical research and lost the job due to funding.
With a "breakup" on top of that, I moved back and tried to pull myself together from a deep depression. I began to study for the PCAT because I just wanted anything to get on with my life. Did okay with the studying but did it all within a couple weeks and scored in the 98th percentile. I didn't even finish any section because I had not done any practice tests. I really knew pharmacy wasn't for me though... Then remembered PA school which I had brushed off and forgotten years ago because of the clinical experience I needed. Took the additional requirements I needed (full load) during the fall and got all As. Took the GRE and scored over 320.
I applied to a few schools very late in the cycle and got IIs for most. I even had to reject interviews that were on the same day but couldn't be rescheduled because they were the last ones offered. Put a deposit on a school I liked and have another interview at my top choice next week.. I was told my trend in grade improvement was stellar and not even a concern. My PS was praised and I was told by faculty that it stood out from the rest, even though I've always considered myself a terrible writer.
But. I still don't know... I've always wanted to be a doctor. My experience shows that. I'm surprised it hasn't hurt me in the cycle besides not being able to apply to most schools for not meeting requirements (classes/shadowing/etc).
Money isn't a factor either way. Not for school loans for med school or the lower income for PA.
I'm currently studying for the MCAT and considering it my last chance. The test has made me nervous since I was 20... I've never really tried and have nothing but time right now. But spending another year applying for a "what if" terrifies me.
I think my story shows how little "natural intelligence" means when you have the self confidence of a potato. I'm just working hard on having a daily routine where I don't procrastinate by getting in my head.
Any advice? WWYD? :/
I don't think stats are relevant to my situation but:
College: Some laboratory research experience (grant, etc). Plenty of hospital and clinical volunteering. Some leadership and volunteering with underprivileged.
After: Clinical coordinator and my name is on a few things but I did minimal data analysis/writing. Just literally everything else.
GPA: Haven't calculated in a while, but graduated with 3.2, probably same science (inflated by easy courses). Then the last 4 or so FT semesters has been all 4.0 in science courses.
It's been so long since I've been here that I feel so much embarrassment looking at my old posts.
Quick Summary:
I got good grades my entire <18 life without trying, scored well on standardized exams, etc. But have always been a very anxious person. I spent more time procrastinating by worrying about something than doing that thing.
So... Going to a "top" university that graded on a bell curve was quite the wake up call and did pretty bad. Barely studied even when pulling all-nighters. I did do significantly better my senior year and then did a year of postbacc at a local university with 4.0 (Chem/Physics/Bio). I then did a few years of clinical research and lost the job due to funding.
With a "breakup" on top of that, I moved back and tried to pull myself together from a deep depression. I began to study for the PCAT because I just wanted anything to get on with my life. Did okay with the studying but did it all within a couple weeks and scored in the 98th percentile. I didn't even finish any section because I had not done any practice tests. I really knew pharmacy wasn't for me though... Then remembered PA school which I had brushed off and forgotten years ago because of the clinical experience I needed. Took the additional requirements I needed (full load) during the fall and got all As. Took the GRE and scored over 320.
I applied to a few schools very late in the cycle and got IIs for most. I even had to reject interviews that were on the same day but couldn't be rescheduled because they were the last ones offered. Put a deposit on a school I liked and have another interview at my top choice next week.. I was told my trend in grade improvement was stellar and not even a concern. My PS was praised and I was told by faculty that it stood out from the rest, even though I've always considered myself a terrible writer.
But. I still don't know... I've always wanted to be a doctor. My experience shows that. I'm surprised it hasn't hurt me in the cycle besides not being able to apply to most schools for not meeting requirements (classes/shadowing/etc).
Money isn't a factor either way. Not for school loans for med school or the lower income for PA.
I'm currently studying for the MCAT and considering it my last chance. The test has made me nervous since I was 20... I've never really tried and have nothing but time right now. But spending another year applying for a "what if" terrifies me.
I think my story shows how little "natural intelligence" means when you have the self confidence of a potato. I'm just working hard on having a daily routine where I don't procrastinate by getting in my head.
Any advice? WWYD? :/
I don't think stats are relevant to my situation but:
College: Some laboratory research experience (grant, etc). Plenty of hospital and clinical volunteering. Some leadership and volunteering with underprivileged.
After: Clinical coordinator and my name is on a few things but I did minimal data analysis/writing. Just literally everything else.
GPA: Haven't calculated in a while, but graduated with 3.2, probably same science (inflated by easy courses). Then the last 4 or so FT semesters has been all 4.0 in science courses.