Soo... GP and Er are still slammed going on five months long now. So many posts trying to explain just how thinly spread we are, attempting to bring light to the clients that them yelling at us and threatening legal action is doing no one any good. I am constantly scared my patient care is slipping to unacceptable levels because there are so many emergencies that have to be worked into an already filled schedule.
I have no time to enjoy even the routine visits (that are actually routine visits) because the only thought is I can just run a quick hand over and give the vax, hit on flea tick and HW and get them out in 10minutes.
I am thankful that I have helped as many pets as I have, but now I am also feeling guilty that I am not taking the local ER shifts as they are even more slammed and have to rely on the local vets (we are all in running this er so day gp has some quality of life). I helped a decent amount before all this started, but if I work even more, I just don't know that I wouldn't burn out immediately and call it quits. I am a very resilient person, but as an introvert empath kind of person, it takes so much out of me doing right by the people themselves as well as their animals who are in need. I need my days off to not say a word all day and be mindless while surrounded by my own pets.
I am not sharing this for any real reactions or anything, just a post for people to read and evaluate where they are, maybe take a moment to assess what you need to do for yourself right now to help bring a moment of peace.
I am thankful for the weekday I have off and can just bury myself in things I love, which right now is a lemon vodka arnold palmer, watching HGTV, and in a mostly darkened room with my old man cat, who has had some questionable health lately, sleeping at my side.