I’ve already counseled you that you just need to do you. Stop comparing yourself to others. There will always be someone “better” than you, like Jonny Kim. He is a former Navy SEAL medic/sniper, who then went on to Harvard Medical School, and is now training with NASA to become an astronaut.
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You will forever live in Jonny Kim’s shadow. Now move on. If you want to specialize, only do it if you have a genuine interest, not because you have something to prove to somebody else. You will never be happy if you live your life like this.
Big Hoss